Knick Knacks

I am already back in Penang since 12th of March. I did this and that and this and that but it was all nice cos I am doing it with my family members and close friends.

Wonderful apartment stay with Joel and the girls, Earth Hour with family, breakfast with Ga, AFS dinner with Az and Yna, many more.

The bad thing is that I have been sleeping at 3 or 4 or even 5 am every single day or no sleep at all.

Oh the food, the sea, the beach and the people. Such a wonderful place. It is my little heaven and also hell, happiness and also sadness, insanity and also sanity haha.

Lately the weather is being a bitch......

Collide

I was in the car to Gurney Plaza, as usual I am sitting at the back seat. Just doing my usual things, staring out of the window to enjoy my ride.

I noticed someone, which is rare cos I don't look at people unless they look familiar. This guy caught my attention cos he was walking the opposite direction and he has been staring at me the whole time, so I stared back and our eyes locked for that 5 seconds...... I know if I was walking and alone, we would start talking. When my eyes met his, I smiled, I do not know why, but I smiled, so did he but then he saw that my parents was in the car, he just continue staring.

All I know is that he is wearing a black shirt and black pants and carrying a knapsack. I kept on thinking of him. This is somehow a very funny kind of attraction, cos I do not feel all sexual kind of attraction.

Well, I'll be leaving Penang on Wednesday morning, I am not exactly sure if I will see him again in my whole life, but I will hold on to this funny/weird memory. Maybe someday, maybe never, who knows?

Somehow I am missing Penang already....

Ewwzors

I do not like the new facebook layout at all AND please stop raining and being so hot when it is not raining. Weather has been extreme and I do not wanna fall sick.

PS: I am back in Penang :)

You Cannot Love Me

No, you are not allowed to love me. I love you but it will not happen.

Lots of love

Cos I'm Leaving.....

So I will be flying back to Penang :) I am so happy. Oh my home sweet home. Amidst all of the shit that is happening in my country, I still think that my country is very much well off than most countries and I will always be proud of my country (Do I sound like a nationalist? :P)

My exam results are out today. It is not that good but I am just happy to pass due the the reason that I was having so much stress with housing and I did not have time to study.

So this is my results:

Managerial Accounting and Finance- C+
Communication Skills 2 (Middle Eastern Business Etiquette)- B+
Distribution Center Management- B
Materials Management- C+
Understanding Theatre- B

Well grades are not good but I am contented :)

I'll be heading off to my backpacking trip on the 1st of April. Can't wait, hope everything goes well

Memories

Have you ever found your really old diary that reminds you of what you've done and stuff?

Well I was trying to find a book to write and I stumbled upon my diary when I was in Germany. I couldn't resist but to open and read it. I read the whole thing. I have to admit, I regretted not writing much but most of the things which I wrote brings back such strong memories and I was stunned for like a long time after finish reading it.

I am not a good writer and I am not the person who likes to write but I like to scribble haha. I wrote every single crap that happened. Note, only crap which means all those ups and downs. I still remember that I have an old blog which is like sort of my coming out blog. It is so gay and shit haha.

Personally, I think when we read back bout stuff, bad or good, happy or sad, we cherished the moment and it gives a strong impact on us in one way or the other.

Imagine me reading the diary again when I am 30 years old, I think I would be full of tears

Full of Bullocks

Have you ever like asked someone for help and they gave the craziest reasons for not helping you? Recently I am on the verge on being homeless and desperately looking for a room to rent, and people are giving thousand and 1 reasons for not helping and shit.

So today I got irritated and frustrated and just told someone off, if you would like to help, help, if not, please do not gimme so many reasons for not helping. It is totally not appreciated. Already I am facing the stress of exams and searching for new housing due to the reason that I have to move out after exams, I do not need to listen to your unnecessary crap of why not helping me because of high electricity bills, petrol prices hike and shit.

Hello? Read the newspapers, petrol prices are so fucking low, you can practically drink it and government is gonna lower the electricity tariffs. Yeah wanna leech off a poor student right now and when the rental market slumps in June or July and I will still be paying some high end price due to the 1 year contract? Go fug yourself......

I appreciate everyone who have helped me without asking or giving shitty reasons. Thank you you guys.

If you were to ask me for help, I just either say yes or sorry I can't cos (state 1 reason) that's all but I'll try my best if I can. I do not like running around the block and be back at square one, this is not a fitness contest.

I still feel that being straight forward is one of the best policies. Maybe that's why there are so many sly people over here. Surprise, surprise....... so much for advertising, living in Singapore is affordable with a friendly environment, yeah if your parents owns Walmart or McDonalds or some shit and you feed those people money to be friendly to you. I feel like puking on someone's face.....

Valentine's Day

Yeah yeah all the commercials and stuff. I do not really understand, why 99 roses?

Anyways, happy valentine's day to everyone. How did you spent yours?

Mine was pathetic but at least I am not depressed.

Here's what I did on Valentine's Day:

I went to the Government Housing Department to inquire about the place that I am moving cos there have been too much lies and unpaid bills by the person who was suppose to pay that. Time spent there? 3 hours. 2 hours for waiting and 1 hour debating with the officer. Suck ass

Then I spent the whole day just making calls to housing agents, although I always hope it would not be a housing agent but it sucks. I don't like a lot of them cos they are slys and stuff. Totally hiked up price and shit.

So now I have an appeal to everyone out there in Singapore. If you guys have any rooms or know of any rooms that are to let please, please please, please help me. I totally need your help and my budget is not high due to recessions and stuff. I'd pay a higher rent when I work in future, promise. Love you guys :)

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

Kisses,
MM

Internet Religion

My sleeping patterns are really bad, I would tell myself that I would wanna sleep at 11pm tonight, I would end up sleeping at 3am or something.

I blame this thing to the internet. 80% of the time I would be on Facebook, 15% on wikipedia and google after reading newspapers and 5% reading blogs. I think internet took my sleep away, I am like addicted to internet. When I did not have internet, I used to sleep at 9pm but now.....OMG

Maybe it is because I am using the laptop and internet more for my school stuff....

How to gain a good sleeping pattern? Maybe I need an alarm clock that rings every time it is time for me to stop, I seriously need this. I need to be discipline!

I have an interview role play in a few hours time and I am not even prepared, well I will just answer whatever the tutor asks. I hate applying for fantasy jobs (Not that I have actually applied for a job before) It is gonna be a group interview, I hope I get the 'job', wish me luck!

I'm Done With This

I have not been blogging for a very long time for several reasons:-

I have been having a lot of things in my mind.

I have been too lazy to write anything cos I do not know which to write 1st.

I have a feeling that the readership for this blog is rather low due to the lack of comments and everything.

So what about the title?

Well I went out today, just got home. It's 2.40 am now.

I have a feeling that maybe I have given up on love.

Men are pigs, gay men are even worst, more promiscuous, as a gay person I know more. I guess when I read the report, it is true that only 10% of the gay men are actually looking to have a real relationship and are able to sustain and maintain a relationship. The other 90% are just fucking around like pigs and dogs and are just looking out for their personal interest. Maybe I might just die alone or something. I am in the 10% but 10% isn't a lot, considering that 10% of men in this world are gay and the 10% of that 10% which makes it only 1% or rather 1 out of a 100 possibility that you can find a man who is gay AND monogamous. Get the equation?

So why am I writing this? I just experienced it, saw it with my very own eyes. That was why in the 1st place I refuse to go to the gay scene until today cos I wanted to give a friend a surprise.

What the heck? I am so confused right now and a million thoughts are racing through my mind.

I am actually listening to Soulmate by Natasha Bedingfield. It explains everything, somewhat.

Who doesn't long for someone to hold? Who knows how to love you, without being told.

But the ultimate question is: What is love? Different people have different definitions of it, life is so funny. It keeps me wondering....... everyday

Is there really a soulmate for everyone?