Ha ja

Also ich glaube ich wird bald verrueckt. Ich fuehle mich so alleine und einsam. Also ich hab diese Leid von Christina Struemer es heisst Engel Fliegen Einsam, ich denke es stimmt. Viele leute sagen das ich bin ein Engel zu dem weil ich hab immer die geholfen wenn es gab problem. Ist das so schlecht? Wenn ich ein film schaue, ich sehe ne ganz froehes glueckliches paar und alles, egal schwul oda hete. Ich bin eifersuchtig. Bin ich so kompliziert? Also ich denke ned.... Was denkst du?

Ich hoffe ihr allem kann mein Deutsche verstehen weil meine unterricht sind alles auf Englisch und ich sprechen fast nur 1 oder 2 saetze auf Deutsch am meinstens jeden tag. in 2009 ich wurde zurueck nach Deutschland ganz kurz fliegen und warschienlich mein Ausbildung fuer 11 wochen machen, ja schau mal mal....

Servus und gruess aus Singapur, ned so pur eigentlich...

Ich und mein kaputtes Deutsch....

It's Everything I Should Be

So hear this now to reply to one of my comments:

I am not looking for love but I am WAITING for love to look for me.

I am just wondering if my statement is right but then again, there is no right or wrong answer in this context, I am just waiting for love, that's all. I know I am a little insane inside, isn't everyone as well?

I wanted to write something but I forget, anyways I have a test tomorrow and I still need to study. It's already also 3am here and I need to wake up at like 8, I would be glad once tomorrow is over and I could just come back home and have a good rest :)

All That I Am

If you're not too long, I will wait here for you all my life

A Visit From A Friend + 1 And Departure

Well I have not been updating lately cos I either have been busy or dwell too much in my depression, I am self-obsessed.

Well a very good friend of mine, Franzi and her friend Marie came to Singapore as part of their Asian backpacking trip. It was awesome as I have not seen a friend of mine who knows so much of me for so long. We spoke our local Bavarian dialect and it was sau geil! (super cool in Bavarian). They flew to Tokyo on Thursday last week, we had problems with Franzi's flight ticket cos apparently the check-in counter lady told her that her ticket is invalid and crap, well she bought a new ticket and life goes on....

I showed them around and as usual we got lost cos I have too many maps in my head but I can't seem to figure out which is which city.....

Anyways we were out everyday, of course, they bought stuff, I see stuff, we went partying in Ministry of Sound (MOS), one of the hottest disco in Singapore but NOT anymore, I think Zouk is better now. I lost my Visa card there, this is the 2nd time I lost it this year! Once was erm when I lost my whole wallet with my travel document and identity cards and stuff inside. It was actually like 3 or 4 months ago. I think it's like cursed, the metallic brown visa card is cursed!!

And well I have been going to the gay scene for 2 weeks cos of a friend, Francisco, dunno if u guys remember him from previous posts. He left actually yesterday back to Mexico cos he needed to get a visa to enter Germany as he can't get it here. :( He was a good and nice friend. I teased him the very last night we had in Tantric, he was so horny, he wanted to xxxx me but I said no. Ok a little naughty details ova here heh? We were dancing and stuff, IN a BAR and yeah.... One surprising thing, there were a HUGE crowd of Stewards! KLM, Etihad, Lufthansa, Singapore Airlines, and god knows what else!

Oh well time to go back to reality and I am a head for some event which I have to publicize, kinda sucky and I have to write an article for a newsletter for an event which I attended.

Have I written anything bout Supply Chain Asia? Maybe not...

I love this quote:

It's better to have loved and lost, than have not fallen in love before (something similar which I heard, can't remember the exact words)

Summersturm

I just watched this German movie called Summersturm and I think it is cool.

I do not know how to describe it but I love the movie so much. It is in German with some Bavarian dialect in it.

It is about a boy from a dragon boat team or some boat team who is from a small town somewhere near Bamberg. Yeah the bottom line is that this guy, Tobi found out that he is falling in love with his best friend Achim and Achim has a girlfriend, which I forgot her name. Then problems starts to come out and stuff.

It is an eye opener film and I think everyone should watch it. It teaches everyone in general to be respecting of sexual orientations and lots more.

I am too tired and lazy now.

If you wanna watch the English version which I don't think would be good the title is Summer Storm, same meaning as the original title.

Try watching it in German with English subtitles 1st cos then you will feel it more.

Notice that the coach speaks a very heavy Bavarian dialect, very typical.

So what are you waiting for? Watch it! Go!

Ignorance is bliss

Here is a review from another blog, it is in German, English and French

Avenue Q

They are coming to Singapore! I would so love to watch it but I do not wanna watch it alone. I love their songs and it is so creative. Here one of the songs that I like. Click on it and enjoy! ;)

Endlich!

Finally I have found a song that I have been searching for all my life. It reflects my feelings so like forever and I think it really understands me. So yeah I found a song which reflects me and also understands me, not a man though.....

Here's the song

Listen and be enchanted..........

Supply Chain Asia

Well I have not blog lately cos I was busy with this forum thingy and I was staying with a friend of mine who is staying close to the hotel. Well I have internet there but I was so damn busy, I did not have time to catch my breath.

The forum was ok, people were kinda stuck and professional but I managed to talked to several nice industry players.

So yeah, imma go meet some friends soon.

Maybe You Could Help Me Understand?

I have been asking myself what life is and what it means to me and a lot of people have asked me that question too. For some people money seem to be the most important thing. But to me happiness and love is the most important thing for me, it always have been. To me money does not buy happiness, to some people it does buy them happiness.

Does money buy long term happiness and true love?

Dehydrated

If you ever drink alcohol, drink lots of water the following day. As much as you can. Alcohol makes your body dehydrated. I have been so dehydrated that I can feel it very much. After alcohol, if you feel really bad in your stomach or whatever, drink a can of Coke. It helps. After that go to bed. Drink lots of water the next day. Capisce?

Ich weiss nicht

Also ich weiss nicht ja was sollte ich machen. Ich hab grad ne freund gesagt das ich sorge ueber ihn und er hat gesagt das ich hab zu ihn gesagt das er ne schlampe ist. Hallo du???? Ich hab das ned gesagt. Ich habe nur gefragt wieso gehts du da und andere manner treffe aber nicht mit mir. Du hast gesagt das du bist einsam also ich war froeh das du hat jemand zu treffen. Ja, also ich weiss nicht. Manchmal ist beziehung irgendwas schweres zu behalten...... Ich glaube ich geh mal zelten mit meine freunden bis Sonntag und dann kam ich wieder zurueck.

Ich weiss nicht warum aba ich moechte einfach so Deutsch schrieben. Ich weiss das mein Deutsch nicht so perfekt ist aba bei mir und fuer meine freunden das geht schon. Vlg

Singer of The Month

So far for month of July I have been listening to songs from this artist and this artist only. When I was back in Germany I did not really like him cos I thought his song was crappy. But I was wrong. His songs are one of the best and I really really like them. The name of this artist is Xavier Naidoo. He is an South African Indian-German guy, in short also a Eurasian. Cool right? He sings in English and German but mostly German.

Here's one of his song (English/German): Ich kenne nichts (I've never seen) Listen to it!

My Man Is A Mean Man

This is song my a Swiss Idol or something winner. Her name is Stefanie Heinzmann. I really love this song

Here's the song

Loads people say she might not look good but to me looks does not count.... Talent does but this is a shallow world so yeah...

Songs That I Have Been Listening

Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis (and also the Jesse McCartney Version)

Engel Fliegen Einsam by Christina Stuermer (German)

Tocame by Sin Bandera (Spanish)

Devolva-me by Adriana Calcanhoto (Portuguese)

I Don't Know Much but I Know I Love You by Linda Ronstadt feat. Aaron Neville

Home by Micheal Buble

I Belong To You (Italian Version) by Eros Ramazzoti and Anastacia

Life For Rent by Dido

Right Here With Me by Dido

Soll Es Bleiben by Ich & Ich (German)

Stop & Stare by OneRepublic

Alcoholic

I am not an alcoholic but I have been drinking and getting so damn drunk and stuff everyday since I met James. I am afraid and I would wanna forget bout him. I want a relationship with him but I am not sure if he will want that. I am afraid I might get heart broken again.

To relieve my sadness I have been drinking everyday and get so damn drunk that my friends would have to bring me back home and stuff. Drunkness ease my sadness for awhile but ich will mich verlieben. Life's never fair...... The good person always get the shit.

Marc told me so many things bout me that he finds so good and I should have a lover and someone who really really loves me. Marc thinks that I am romantic cos I notice all those small things and I do all those small things to show my love, even to a good friend.... I am tired of helping people get back to their partners or helping them in their relationship. I want a partner myself and I want to be really in love and I want it to be 2 sided and not only 1 sided. I think I am a hopeless romantic....

Who does not want to be loved? I have been longing for that, someone who really really treats me well and not some abusive or denial person.....

Look at me and tell me you love me........... No one has done that to me. I feel that my love life is a failure.