Fragen ueber Liebe

Was ist liebe?

Warum suchen wir immer auf liebe?

Warum sagen wir "Ich liebe dich" obwohl manchmal das nicht wahr ist?

Sind mensch immer so liebe suechtig?

Kann man ohne liebe leben?

Brauchen wir eigentlich liebe?

Warum suche ich auf liebe? Der suche nach liebe ist immer so schwer und kompliziert. Warum ist liebe so schwer zu finden?

Ich verstehe ueberhaupt nicht aber ich weiss das ich suche immer noch auf liebe.

Christian The Lion

I've always found this clip so beautiful

Finals

I'm having my finals right now until next friday, totally crucial. I really hope I pass everything. This time I will be contented with just a pass for all of my subjects.

Good luck to me

Threesome

I watched a movie and I think it's really worth watching. I think films that are not so commercialized or non-Hollywood films are worth watching cos they take on a different perspective.

The title is called Threesome.

It's about 3 roommates. Eddy and Stuart share two-thirds of a dormitory suite. Due to bureaucratic error, a woman named Alex is added to their room. At first, relations among the three are tense. Soon, however, Alex falls for Eddy, and Stuart lusts after Alex. Eddy comes to realize not only that he's gay, but that he's attracted to Stuart. The three pledge not to act on any romantic (or lustful) feelings with each other, and become close friends . . . while bottling up a lot of sexual tension. Starring Lara Flynn Boyle, Josh Charles, and Stephen Baldwin.

Here's Part 2 cos part 1's audio has been removed due to copyright. The other parts are there.


These are the quotes which I really liked and noticed when I watched this film:-


"A man is happy when he has both work and love"

"It's kinda pointless isn't it? Putting on clothes when I just wanna take em off"

"I like females, but I just don't wanna have sex with them"

"I have nothing against homos. Look, you are what you are right?"

"How can I be tired of this sex thing if I haven't had any sex?"

"You're a closeted heterosexual!"

"2's a company, 3's pathetic"

"You just can't cut your pee pee off, you just can't let it run your life"

"Solitude brought out the worst in me, it gave me time to brute over the nature of things"

"I wonder how some people can be such a necessary part of one's life one day and simply vanish the next. Isn't it suppose to last?"

"My college experience wasn't what I planned, it bore no resemblance to the pictures on the brochure"

"It's kinda like when you go on a vacation, you plan everything out, but then one day you make a wrong turn or take a detour and you end up in some crazy place you can't even find on the map, doing something you'll never thought you'd do. Maybe you feel a little lost for what's happening but later you realise that it's the best part of the whole trip."

Different

This is about how the world is gonna be like when it's the extreme opposite. Everyday hundreds or thousands of homosexuals face discrimination, they are being beaten, insulted, shunned by society, killed or in certain cases, are facing a death sentence just because they are homosexuals which carries a death penalty in their country.

Homosexuals exist since like forever and just because we are minorities, we should not be discriminated, put yourself in his/her shoes before doing anything bad to him/her cos if you were different, you would not want the same thing to happen to you if you were to be a minority. Be civilised!

The title of this short film is Different and it is the winner of the Grand Jury Prize for Student Film in the 2004 edition of the Rhode Island Film Festival.

Enjoy

LAME

I read this news on fridae.com:-

Malaysian doctor links masturbation and gay sex to H1N1 flu

by News Editor

When asked to clarify, Malaysia’s Health Ministry Director General refused to comment on the accuracy of the news report carried by the government's official news agency Bernama News which reported that while heterosexual sex acts are safe, masturbation and homosexual activities could make one susceptible to the H1N1 virus.

Malaysia’s state-run Bernama News reported last week that “avoiding masturbation and homosexual activities are among preventive measures one could take against Influenza A (H1N1).”

The report quoted “an eminent practitioner of complimentary therapy” Dr. V. M. Palaniappan, the author of several books including 'Ecological Healing System'. Dr Palaniappan is reportedly a former associate professor of ecology at Universiti Malaya.

Quoting Dr Palaniappan, the news report goes on to explain that masturbation and homosexual activities causes the body to “develop friction heat which in turn, produced acid and made the body hyperacidised.”

"Thus, the body becomes an easy target for H1N1 infection," he told Bernama, emphasising however, that normal sexual union between members of the opposite sex was absolutely safe.

He also recommends the consumption of alkaline food and drinks such as coconut water that could neutralise excess acid in the body and could be used as an herbal medicine for the prevention of H1N1.

The report did not contain any other information about the H1N1 virus or other precautions to minimise the risks of contracting the virus.

Several days later, when asked to comment about the accuracy of the report in Bernama News, Health Ministry Director General Tan Sri Dr Ismail Merican reportedly refused to comment on the article.

Ismail told the reporter from The Sun: “That is an article. If you read an article and you digest it, whether you believe it or not, it’s up to you. There was no mention of the ministry of health. I wouldn’t want to comment on that article. Pandai-pandailah (use your discretion)."

What a fucking lame piece of thing. He must be mentally unsound or something. So much anger

Here's the link

Fleisch? Isst doch mal!

People ask me when don't I eat pork although I am not a Muslim. It's easy, I have a lot of Muslim friends when I grow up so generally, I do not eat pork. Even when I grew up I generally do not choose it as my choice of meat. Unless I do not know that it was or in rare occasions I eat it knowingly.

But when I travel, I do not care what meat am I eat, as long as it looks normal and smells normal, I'll eat it cos as I aspire to be a globe trekker, I should not be so choosy. Probably that's why I have eaten meat that I do not know that could be eaten. So far, I've eaten horse meat, horse sausages and dog sausages. I ate those horse meat stuff knowingly and I do not have other choice cos I was sort of forced fed to eat it. It was back in Germany and I really HAD to eat it cos it's specially cooked for me. It tastes like beef but the texture is wayyyyyyyy tougher.

This year I ate dog sausage, this was the weirdest feeling ever. I did not know that it was dog sausage at all or thought that dog sausages even exist. I was in Vietnam, and was hungry so I decided to be adventurous and have some street food cos the past 5 days there I have been dining in restaurants which is not good cos I was on a backpacking trip and I already broke so many backpacking rules by staying in a hotel, dining in restaurants the whole time, etc (I had food poisoning on the day that I was suppose to fly to Vietnam from Laos). As I was walking I saw sausages being grill, I was like great! Something which is a safe bet. Bought it and 1st bite was, "Hey, I think this sausage taste weird, probably it's a Vietnamese style preparation or something" I passed it to my friend for him to try and he took a bite. He said "Somehow, I am weirdly sure that this is dog sausage" I was almost going crazy.

Dog meat? Can you believe it? Those little doggies and not to mention I love dogs. Every time when I think back I feel disgusted.

Although I hate to admit it, somehow I feel that when they say that every which moves, you can eat it (I am actually closing my eyes, feeling disgusted right now).

I'll stick to chicken, beef and fish for now as my choice of meat :)

Names and Labels

I bet in the course of our lives, we have given or called someone names. Sometimes it's really just a friendly thing, it could be a name or pet name that you give to your loved ones, a nasty name, etc. We, unknowingly have being called names as well.

Recently I realise that I AM the bitch who I turned out to be, like a nasty one. I give people nicknames based on the way they look, dresses or act. But who am I to blame? I'm just a gay boy and I did not mean it when I give names and people start to use it on that person. Well eventually it dies down. I feel guilty.

BUT I did give names to my good/close friends as well, something nice or to remember us. It's a good kind of name which probably began with something nasty at 1st. I myself have several names that people give me like my housemate calls me weird names which do not play any significant role as well, or G, a friend of mine since like forever, like more than 10 years have a name for me, etc.

Well yes it could be nasty but it's a way for me to remember people. At least it's good that I do not give names to my friends.

Right now I give names only to my lecturers, tutors or all those people who prowl the bars and clubs that I go to. My housemate and friends know bout the nickname cos it's either those people have affected our lives in a bad way or we are disgusted by their actions. Imagine, a guy crying in a bar just to gain attention from everyone, pathetic isn't it? And mind you, he's 30+ years old or late 20's, we do not need such drama. But then again it's a gay bar, it's suppose to be dramatic. Everyone's a drama queen sometimes.

A very good friend of mine, which we tell people that we are brothers and share the same mom, has a label stuck on him. Everyone thinks that he's a slut and he sleeps around and blah blah blah. I find it irritating when people tell me "Hey don't talk to that guy, he's gonna sleep with you, then leave you." It's either that or they tell me, your boyfriend is a slut. Whatever..... Who knows him better? You or me? I know his background and everything. Honestly, I don't find it a problem, him sleeping around or whatsoever because he's single and not seeing anyone, it does not make him any less of a human. In fact I know several people who sleeps around when they are single and be loyal when they are attached. As long as whatever they do does not affect me. That said, it also does not mean that I sleep around when I am single because I find it disgusting, it's a personal thing.

I bet I have several labels myself especially in this place that I am studying. I've being labeled gay boy, fag, druggie, stuck up boy, boy with the funny accent, boy who does not speak Mandarin, Malaysian boy, basically anything that you can think of. The label druggie came because people know that I know where to get drugs, but it still doesn't mean that I use em because I despise drugs.

But I guess it's just part of growing up and living in this so very dramatic world. Everyone's dramatic in a way or another. As bitchy as I may sound, some people actually deserve those names or labels.

Currently my favourite is prawns. They are the who have a really good body (washboard abs, nice pecs, etc) but a fail face but they are oh-so arrogant thinking that 'I-am-so-hot-cos-my-body's-so-great' who loves dancing shirtless in clubs.

Why do I call them prawns? Easy, when you eat prawns, you remove the head and enjoy the body right? Same goes for these people, cover the head, and enjoy the body.

Basically I'm more attracted to what's in his head rather than his physique.

Updates

I'm gonna be in Penang from September till November, approx 3 month. I'll be performing my internship there as I got a placement. It's near the airport or rather in the airport, so say hi.

While there, there'll be 2 weekends that I'll be gone in October. Weekend 1 to Kuala Lumpur and Weekend 2 to Singapore just cos I know that I'll miss the gayness at some point.

Exams next week, I have to study. The question is always: How to get me started?

After the exams, a few days before flying to Penang, I'd love to fly to Bali but as I was on my way back, I was thinking to myself, if I want to buy my own place in 4 or 5 years time, I need to freaking save up although it's just a few hundred dollars. How can I get at least a million dollars?

Anyways it's the weekend soon and a girl friend of mine is visiting and another girl friend of mine is celebrating her birthday on the same day. How lesbianic of them.

I want a nice clean beach holiday, I need it