Quelqu'un M'a Dit

On me dit que nos vies ne valent pas grand chose,
Elles passent en un instant comme fanent les roses.
On me dit que le temps qui glisse est un salaud que de nos chagrins il s'en fait des manteaux

Secret Wish

As selfish as I might sound, sometimes when I'm on the plane, I wish that it would crash or explode etc and I die in it instantly

I'm Coming Home!

I'm gonna be back in Penang very soon! I'm so excited and everything. Oh the beach and stuff. I miss home and the people and the food.

This time I am gonna be home for a much longer time! I got an internship placement there so I'll be in Penang for 3 months! Wohoooo

Fragen ueber Liebe

Was ist liebe?

Warum suchen wir immer auf liebe?

Warum sagen wir "Ich liebe dich" obwohl manchmal das nicht wahr ist?

Sind mensch immer so liebe suechtig?

Kann man ohne liebe leben?

Brauchen wir eigentlich liebe?

Warum suche ich auf liebe? Der suche nach liebe ist immer so schwer und kompliziert. Warum ist liebe so schwer zu finden?

Ich verstehe ueberhaupt nicht aber ich weiss das ich suche immer noch auf liebe.

Christian The Lion

I've always found this clip so beautiful

Finals

I'm having my finals right now until next friday, totally crucial. I really hope I pass everything. This time I will be contented with just a pass for all of my subjects.

Good luck to me

Threesome

I watched a movie and I think it's really worth watching. I think films that are not so commercialized or non-Hollywood films are worth watching cos they take on a different perspective.

The title is called Threesome.

It's about 3 roommates. Eddy and Stuart share two-thirds of a dormitory suite. Due to bureaucratic error, a woman named Alex is added to their room. At first, relations among the three are tense. Soon, however, Alex falls for Eddy, and Stuart lusts after Alex. Eddy comes to realize not only that he's gay, but that he's attracted to Stuart. The three pledge not to act on any romantic (or lustful) feelings with each other, and become close friends . . . while bottling up a lot of sexual tension. Starring Lara Flynn Boyle, Josh Charles, and Stephen Baldwin.

Here's Part 2 cos part 1's audio has been removed due to copyright. The other parts are there.


These are the quotes which I really liked and noticed when I watched this film:-


"A man is happy when he has both work and love"

"It's kinda pointless isn't it? Putting on clothes when I just wanna take em off"

"I like females, but I just don't wanna have sex with them"

"I have nothing against homos. Look, you are what you are right?"

"How can I be tired of this sex thing if I haven't had any sex?"

"You're a closeted heterosexual!"

"2's a company, 3's pathetic"

"You just can't cut your pee pee off, you just can't let it run your life"

"Solitude brought out the worst in me, it gave me time to brute over the nature of things"

"I wonder how some people can be such a necessary part of one's life one day and simply vanish the next. Isn't it suppose to last?"

"My college experience wasn't what I planned, it bore no resemblance to the pictures on the brochure"

"It's kinda like when you go on a vacation, you plan everything out, but then one day you make a wrong turn or take a detour and you end up in some crazy place you can't even find on the map, doing something you'll never thought you'd do. Maybe you feel a little lost for what's happening but later you realise that it's the best part of the whole trip."

Different

This is about how the world is gonna be like when it's the extreme opposite. Everyday hundreds or thousands of homosexuals face discrimination, they are being beaten, insulted, shunned by society, killed or in certain cases, are facing a death sentence just because they are homosexuals which carries a death penalty in their country.

Homosexuals exist since like forever and just because we are minorities, we should not be discriminated, put yourself in his/her shoes before doing anything bad to him/her cos if you were different, you would not want the same thing to happen to you if you were to be a minority. Be civilised!

The title of this short film is Different and it is the winner of the Grand Jury Prize for Student Film in the 2004 edition of the Rhode Island Film Festival.

Enjoy

LAME

I read this news on fridae.com:-

Malaysian doctor links masturbation and gay sex to H1N1 flu

by News Editor

When asked to clarify, Malaysia’s Health Ministry Director General refused to comment on the accuracy of the news report carried by the government's official news agency Bernama News which reported that while heterosexual sex acts are safe, masturbation and homosexual activities could make one susceptible to the H1N1 virus.

Malaysia’s state-run Bernama News reported last week that “avoiding masturbation and homosexual activities are among preventive measures one could take against Influenza A (H1N1).”

The report quoted “an eminent practitioner of complimentary therapy” Dr. V. M. Palaniappan, the author of several books including 'Ecological Healing System'. Dr Palaniappan is reportedly a former associate professor of ecology at Universiti Malaya.

Quoting Dr Palaniappan, the news report goes on to explain that masturbation and homosexual activities causes the body to “develop friction heat which in turn, produced acid and made the body hyperacidised.”

"Thus, the body becomes an easy target for H1N1 infection," he told Bernama, emphasising however, that normal sexual union between members of the opposite sex was absolutely safe.

He also recommends the consumption of alkaline food and drinks such as coconut water that could neutralise excess acid in the body and could be used as an herbal medicine for the prevention of H1N1.

The report did not contain any other information about the H1N1 virus or other precautions to minimise the risks of contracting the virus.

Several days later, when asked to comment about the accuracy of the report in Bernama News, Health Ministry Director General Tan Sri Dr Ismail Merican reportedly refused to comment on the article.

Ismail told the reporter from The Sun: “That is an article. If you read an article and you digest it, whether you believe it or not, it’s up to you. There was no mention of the ministry of health. I wouldn’t want to comment on that article. Pandai-pandailah (use your discretion)."

What a fucking lame piece of thing. He must be mentally unsound or something. So much anger

Here's the link

Fleisch? Isst doch mal!

People ask me when don't I eat pork although I am not a Muslim. It's easy, I have a lot of Muslim friends when I grow up so generally, I do not eat pork. Even when I grew up I generally do not choose it as my choice of meat. Unless I do not know that it was or in rare occasions I eat it knowingly.

But when I travel, I do not care what meat am I eat, as long as it looks normal and smells normal, I'll eat it cos as I aspire to be a globe trekker, I should not be so choosy. Probably that's why I have eaten meat that I do not know that could be eaten. So far, I've eaten horse meat, horse sausages and dog sausages. I ate those horse meat stuff knowingly and I do not have other choice cos I was sort of forced fed to eat it. It was back in Germany and I really HAD to eat it cos it's specially cooked for me. It tastes like beef but the texture is wayyyyyyyy tougher.

This year I ate dog sausage, this was the weirdest feeling ever. I did not know that it was dog sausage at all or thought that dog sausages even exist. I was in Vietnam, and was hungry so I decided to be adventurous and have some street food cos the past 5 days there I have been dining in restaurants which is not good cos I was on a backpacking trip and I already broke so many backpacking rules by staying in a hotel, dining in restaurants the whole time, etc (I had food poisoning on the day that I was suppose to fly to Vietnam from Laos). As I was walking I saw sausages being grill, I was like great! Something which is a safe bet. Bought it and 1st bite was, "Hey, I think this sausage taste weird, probably it's a Vietnamese style preparation or something" I passed it to my friend for him to try and he took a bite. He said "Somehow, I am weirdly sure that this is dog sausage" I was almost going crazy.

Dog meat? Can you believe it? Those little doggies and not to mention I love dogs. Every time when I think back I feel disgusted.

Although I hate to admit it, somehow I feel that when they say that every which moves, you can eat it (I am actually closing my eyes, feeling disgusted right now).

I'll stick to chicken, beef and fish for now as my choice of meat :)

Names and Labels

I bet in the course of our lives, we have given or called someone names. Sometimes it's really just a friendly thing, it could be a name or pet name that you give to your loved ones, a nasty name, etc. We, unknowingly have being called names as well.

Recently I realise that I AM the bitch who I turned out to be, like a nasty one. I give people nicknames based on the way they look, dresses or act. But who am I to blame? I'm just a gay boy and I did not mean it when I give names and people start to use it on that person. Well eventually it dies down. I feel guilty.

BUT I did give names to my good/close friends as well, something nice or to remember us. It's a good kind of name which probably began with something nasty at 1st. I myself have several names that people give me like my housemate calls me weird names which do not play any significant role as well, or G, a friend of mine since like forever, like more than 10 years have a name for me, etc.

Well yes it could be nasty but it's a way for me to remember people. At least it's good that I do not give names to my friends.

Right now I give names only to my lecturers, tutors or all those people who prowl the bars and clubs that I go to. My housemate and friends know bout the nickname cos it's either those people have affected our lives in a bad way or we are disgusted by their actions. Imagine, a guy crying in a bar just to gain attention from everyone, pathetic isn't it? And mind you, he's 30+ years old or late 20's, we do not need such drama. But then again it's a gay bar, it's suppose to be dramatic. Everyone's a drama queen sometimes.

A very good friend of mine, which we tell people that we are brothers and share the same mom, has a label stuck on him. Everyone thinks that he's a slut and he sleeps around and blah blah blah. I find it irritating when people tell me "Hey don't talk to that guy, he's gonna sleep with you, then leave you." It's either that or they tell me, your boyfriend is a slut. Whatever..... Who knows him better? You or me? I know his background and everything. Honestly, I don't find it a problem, him sleeping around or whatsoever because he's single and not seeing anyone, it does not make him any less of a human. In fact I know several people who sleeps around when they are single and be loyal when they are attached. As long as whatever they do does not affect me. That said, it also does not mean that I sleep around when I am single because I find it disgusting, it's a personal thing.

I bet I have several labels myself especially in this place that I am studying. I've being labeled gay boy, fag, druggie, stuck up boy, boy with the funny accent, boy who does not speak Mandarin, Malaysian boy, basically anything that you can think of. The label druggie came because people know that I know where to get drugs, but it still doesn't mean that I use em because I despise drugs.

But I guess it's just part of growing up and living in this so very dramatic world. Everyone's dramatic in a way or another. As bitchy as I may sound, some people actually deserve those names or labels.

Currently my favourite is prawns. They are the who have a really good body (washboard abs, nice pecs, etc) but a fail face but they are oh-so arrogant thinking that 'I-am-so-hot-cos-my-body's-so-great' who loves dancing shirtless in clubs.

Why do I call them prawns? Easy, when you eat prawns, you remove the head and enjoy the body right? Same goes for these people, cover the head, and enjoy the body.

Basically I'm more attracted to what's in his head rather than his physique.

Updates

I'm gonna be in Penang from September till November, approx 3 month. I'll be performing my internship there as I got a placement. It's near the airport or rather in the airport, so say hi.

While there, there'll be 2 weekends that I'll be gone in October. Weekend 1 to Kuala Lumpur and Weekend 2 to Singapore just cos I know that I'll miss the gayness at some point.

Exams next week, I have to study. The question is always: How to get me started?

After the exams, a few days before flying to Penang, I'd love to fly to Bali but as I was on my way back, I was thinking to myself, if I want to buy my own place in 4 or 5 years time, I need to freaking save up although it's just a few hundred dollars. How can I get at least a million dollars?

Anyways it's the weekend soon and a girl friend of mine is visiting and another girl friend of mine is celebrating her birthday on the same day. How lesbianic of them.

I want a nice clean beach holiday, I need it

Great Quote From A Movie

Diamonds are not a girl's best friend but gay guys are girl's best friend

:)

I'm Fine

I'm ok :) I think it was just the side effects of my medications

And

I know there is a problem with my health, I'm just too afraid to find it out. It's not sexual so don't worry

It happened twice already, I hope tomorrow it will not happen again

New Interest

Recently I have developed a new interest in watching GLBT themed films and I realised that I could learn so much more compared to watching Hollywood made films which do not really open my eyes or make me feel like I have learned something.

So I was watching a trailer of a Singaporean gay film called Rice Rhapsody, and I fell in love with this quote:-

"Life first, everything else second"

Prahara Cinta

I got this song from the movie Arisan which is an Indonesian gay movie about a gay guy who is afraid to admit that he is gay and his psychologist set him up with this guy whom he really likes and the rest is history but with a little drama from family and friends. I like the song a lot.

Here are the lyrics, the name of the song is Prahara Cinta:-

Pertama kali berjumpa denganmu kekasihku

Dunia seolah kan runtuh

Makankupun tak enak

Tidurkupun tiada nyenyak

Selalu teringat oh..dirimu..

Inikah oh..namanya insan sedang jatuh cinta

Mengapa..semua begitu indah dilihat


Begitu sedap dipandang

Seolah kuingin slalu tersenyum

Tapi ah..aku malu padamu

Aku malu..aku malu..aku malu..

Tiap kata kau ucapkan terasa indah saja

Selalu teringat dan tak lupa

Kau katakan kau sayang pada diri, kekasihku

Masih banyak lagi rayuanmu..

68 Pages

Dilemma

What would you do if you know this girl who is married to this guy and she is in love with him and he is marrying her just for the sake of it and he left me to marry her. Would you tell her about it? Or just pretend everything is fine

Smile :)

Even if it's gonna kills me, I'm gonna keep on smiling :)

Smile :)<- Click on it

Argh

Weather is being a bitch the past few days. It's either mildly cold or extremely hot. It is not good for my illness.

I have been sick since monday, started with sore throat and now with like runny nose flu-ish feeling, feeling tired all the time. I hope it's not swine flu cos I am yet to see the doc as I dislike doctors over here

Hope Not

I feel like I am cheating my insurance but my parents explained to me that it was my right to get the money cos it really did happen and it is a separate incident.

I don't wanna get sued

Maybe if the insurance tell me that I should not use it, I would pay the insurance back.

Bar-scandal

Scandal anyone?

Au Natural

I love all this leave folding flower things that they use for prayers, aren't they cute?
(Laos)

Nam Khan River that splits Luang Prabang into 2, something like Penang
(Laos)

Beautiful Viet roses and Lilies. Lily is the national flower of Vietnam
(Vietnam)

Luang Prabang

Mekong River

Mysterious looking bug

Colourful umbrellas

I miss Luang Prabang the most out of all the places in Laos. It's such a beautiful place. I'd visit it again. Khob chai lai lai Laos

A toast

In the face of true love you don't just give up, even if the object of your affection is begging you to

Hilarious

Haven't you heard? I'm the crazy bitch around here

Rhyme

I've always liked this tagline "Seoul, soul of Asia"

It makes me smile cos it rhymes so well

Truth?

All those beautiful young people are not interested in you, they are just interested in themselves

What do you think?

My Newest

From the last pair of shoes which I have posted, I bought 3 more pairs of shoes and returned 1 pair cos there were defects and they do not have the colour which I wanted anymore. During the weekend I bought myself a new pair of shoes from Zara. I love it.




I love shoes

Back of My Head

Recently I found something, perhaps a habit or a memory which I have probably put it away for a very long time, it is actually something positive but I just forgot bout it, completely.

Recently I met a friend and showed him around Singapore, he told me I come across as an unhappy person, pessimist and skeptic. I refuse to admit at 1st but then I realise, yes I have changed into those 3 things which I just said and I hate it, maybe that's why I hate being here thinking that this place actually changed me into someone who I do not want to be.

The truth is just that I changed and I blame it on the place which I am living. I was too unhappy that I became something which I do not even like it, which adds on to my unhappiness.

It made me wonder, what happened to the old me which was very much myself? Maybe I just threw him to the back of my head and locked him up.

At that point I realise that I have found the source of my unhappiness, which is rejecting the place that I am in for what it is and thinking that I do not belong here. Just to sum it all up, previously I just hate this place and hate myself for being in this place. Which is probably why I am so unhappy.

Let's face it, I will not get everything I want but I have to live with it. It all brings me back to when I first went over to Germany, where I hated everything and rejected everything. I even refused to speak German to anyone. Life was miserable at that point, probably the lowest but I manage to tell myself, "Live with it, something great might happen"

I realise that what made me go on each day, being happier or accepting and started to immerse into the culture was waking up everyday telling myself, "Today is gonna be a great/good/wonderful day"

It actually works and from Sunday onwards, I've been telling myself every single time I wake up, embracing the new day by saying "Today is gonna be a great/good/wonderful day"

I am a much happier person now, I missed me (What a weird thing to say)

A Brief

Just some updates:-

I was in Laos and Vietnam. Did not make it to Thailand due to the protest, how fucked up can it be? I was really looking forward to Thailand, not to mention the shags and shopping.

Laos was great, Luang Prabang, a UNESCO heritage site was superb, gay and expensive (not surprised cos whatever that rhymes with gays, should be expensive, don't you think so?)

Vang Vieng was insanely full of party goers, straight of course, how boring.

Vientiane was not too bad, befriended with a courtesan (I only use that word when I respect a person of that profession) she was nice, told me a lot of stories and her very sad past and experiences. Can't exactly understand her English but it was nonetheless nice to get to know her. She could straight away tell that I was gay, she should be some faghag or whatever

Vietnam, hmmm just 1 word would sum up what I feel bout it:- Suckballs. Need explanation?

After the backpacking trip, I went back to Penang twice actually, for my grandma's 80th birthday and for my holidays of 10 days.

I'm back in Stressapore, I mean Singapore. I am cool with Singapore and respect it but the people, don't let me get to that.

Well I miss the beach, I need a quiet getaway. Phuket sounds tempting, no? Well it's kinda crowded there. Mauritius have to wait for some time, lack of vitamin M

Makes Me Laugh

Every time when I am in need of a laugh, this video would make me laugh

So Close

This song was introduced to me by my housemate, he knows that it relates to me really well.

Guess what?

He's correct, it relates REALLY well to me

Roadtrip by Darin Zanyar, runner up for Swedish Idol

Something From TV

Loving someone is not the same as knowing them

If you ever do drugs, do it with your friends because they are the only ones who really gives a fuck about you

Yearning is wanting something so bad that it hurts

That's a lot of things we do not know about each other

Don't ask "Are you?" because it's never a question. Just say "I know"

People are what they are

Ponder

Why do I always give my heart away to trash?

Make A Stand

To everyone who reads this blog, please view this video and to fellow Americans, everyone is equal.

NOH8

Meaningful

When you love someone, you will not walk away from your partner when there is a problem but you will try to solve the problem with you partner- My housemate

Savour the relationship

Really?

They say "When life tries to fuck with you, you should fuck it right back."

My question is: How?

So Tell Me

If only love is as simple and as perfect as love songs portray it

Knick Knacks

I am already back in Penang since 12th of March. I did this and that and this and that but it was all nice cos I am doing it with my family members and close friends.

Wonderful apartment stay with Joel and the girls, Earth Hour with family, breakfast with Ga, AFS dinner with Az and Yna, many more.

The bad thing is that I have been sleeping at 3 or 4 or even 5 am every single day or no sleep at all.

Oh the food, the sea, the beach and the people. Such a wonderful place. It is my little heaven and also hell, happiness and also sadness, insanity and also sanity haha.

Lately the weather is being a bitch......

Collide

I was in the car to Gurney Plaza, as usual I am sitting at the back seat. Just doing my usual things, staring out of the window to enjoy my ride.

I noticed someone, which is rare cos I don't look at people unless they look familiar. This guy caught my attention cos he was walking the opposite direction and he has been staring at me the whole time, so I stared back and our eyes locked for that 5 seconds...... I know if I was walking and alone, we would start talking. When my eyes met his, I smiled, I do not know why, but I smiled, so did he but then he saw that my parents was in the car, he just continue staring.

All I know is that he is wearing a black shirt and black pants and carrying a knapsack. I kept on thinking of him. This is somehow a very funny kind of attraction, cos I do not feel all sexual kind of attraction.

Well, I'll be leaving Penang on Wednesday morning, I am not exactly sure if I will see him again in my whole life, but I will hold on to this funny/weird memory. Maybe someday, maybe never, who knows?

Somehow I am missing Penang already....

Ewwzors

I do not like the new facebook layout at all AND please stop raining and being so hot when it is not raining. Weather has been extreme and I do not wanna fall sick.

PS: I am back in Penang :)

You Cannot Love Me

No, you are not allowed to love me. I love you but it will not happen.

Lots of love

Cos I'm Leaving.....

So I will be flying back to Penang :) I am so happy. Oh my home sweet home. Amidst all of the shit that is happening in my country, I still think that my country is very much well off than most countries and I will always be proud of my country (Do I sound like a nationalist? :P)

My exam results are out today. It is not that good but I am just happy to pass due the the reason that I was having so much stress with housing and I did not have time to study.

So this is my results:

Managerial Accounting and Finance- C+
Communication Skills 2 (Middle Eastern Business Etiquette)- B+
Distribution Center Management- B
Materials Management- C+
Understanding Theatre- B

Well grades are not good but I am contented :)

I'll be heading off to my backpacking trip on the 1st of April. Can't wait, hope everything goes well

Memories

Have you ever found your really old diary that reminds you of what you've done and stuff?

Well I was trying to find a book to write and I stumbled upon my diary when I was in Germany. I couldn't resist but to open and read it. I read the whole thing. I have to admit, I regretted not writing much but most of the things which I wrote brings back such strong memories and I was stunned for like a long time after finish reading it.

I am not a good writer and I am not the person who likes to write but I like to scribble haha. I wrote every single crap that happened. Note, only crap which means all those ups and downs. I still remember that I have an old blog which is like sort of my coming out blog. It is so gay and shit haha.

Personally, I think when we read back bout stuff, bad or good, happy or sad, we cherished the moment and it gives a strong impact on us in one way or the other.

Imagine me reading the diary again when I am 30 years old, I think I would be full of tears

Full of Bullocks

Have you ever like asked someone for help and they gave the craziest reasons for not helping you? Recently I am on the verge on being homeless and desperately looking for a room to rent, and people are giving thousand and 1 reasons for not helping and shit.

So today I got irritated and frustrated and just told someone off, if you would like to help, help, if not, please do not gimme so many reasons for not helping. It is totally not appreciated. Already I am facing the stress of exams and searching for new housing due to the reason that I have to move out after exams, I do not need to listen to your unnecessary crap of why not helping me because of high electricity bills, petrol prices hike and shit.

Hello? Read the newspapers, petrol prices are so fucking low, you can practically drink it and government is gonna lower the electricity tariffs. Yeah wanna leech off a poor student right now and when the rental market slumps in June or July and I will still be paying some high end price due to the 1 year contract? Go fug yourself......

I appreciate everyone who have helped me without asking or giving shitty reasons. Thank you you guys.

If you were to ask me for help, I just either say yes or sorry I can't cos (state 1 reason) that's all but I'll try my best if I can. I do not like running around the block and be back at square one, this is not a fitness contest.

I still feel that being straight forward is one of the best policies. Maybe that's why there are so many sly people over here. Surprise, surprise....... so much for advertising, living in Singapore is affordable with a friendly environment, yeah if your parents owns Walmart or McDonalds or some shit and you feed those people money to be friendly to you. I feel like puking on someone's face.....

Valentine's Day

Yeah yeah all the commercials and stuff. I do not really understand, why 99 roses?

Anyways, happy valentine's day to everyone. How did you spent yours?

Mine was pathetic but at least I am not depressed.

Here's what I did on Valentine's Day:

I went to the Government Housing Department to inquire about the place that I am moving cos there have been too much lies and unpaid bills by the person who was suppose to pay that. Time spent there? 3 hours. 2 hours for waiting and 1 hour debating with the officer. Suck ass

Then I spent the whole day just making calls to housing agents, although I always hope it would not be a housing agent but it sucks. I don't like a lot of them cos they are slys and stuff. Totally hiked up price and shit.

So now I have an appeal to everyone out there in Singapore. If you guys have any rooms or know of any rooms that are to let please, please please, please help me. I totally need your help and my budget is not high due to recessions and stuff. I'd pay a higher rent when I work in future, promise. Love you guys :)

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

Kisses,
MM

Internet Religion

My sleeping patterns are really bad, I would tell myself that I would wanna sleep at 11pm tonight, I would end up sleeping at 3am or something.

I blame this thing to the internet. 80% of the time I would be on Facebook, 15% on wikipedia and google after reading newspapers and 5% reading blogs. I think internet took my sleep away, I am like addicted to internet. When I did not have internet, I used to sleep at 9pm but now.....OMG

Maybe it is because I am using the laptop and internet more for my school stuff....

How to gain a good sleeping pattern? Maybe I need an alarm clock that rings every time it is time for me to stop, I seriously need this. I need to be discipline!

I have an interview role play in a few hours time and I am not even prepared, well I will just answer whatever the tutor asks. I hate applying for fantasy jobs (Not that I have actually applied for a job before) It is gonna be a group interview, I hope I get the 'job', wish me luck!

I'm Done With This

I have not been blogging for a very long time for several reasons:-

I have been having a lot of things in my mind.

I have been too lazy to write anything cos I do not know which to write 1st.

I have a feeling that the readership for this blog is rather low due to the lack of comments and everything.

So what about the title?

Well I went out today, just got home. It's 2.40 am now.

I have a feeling that maybe I have given up on love.

Men are pigs, gay men are even worst, more promiscuous, as a gay person I know more. I guess when I read the report, it is true that only 10% of the gay men are actually looking to have a real relationship and are able to sustain and maintain a relationship. The other 90% are just fucking around like pigs and dogs and are just looking out for their personal interest. Maybe I might just die alone or something. I am in the 10% but 10% isn't a lot, considering that 10% of men in this world are gay and the 10% of that 10% which makes it only 1% or rather 1 out of a 100 possibility that you can find a man who is gay AND monogamous. Get the equation?

So why am I writing this? I just experienced it, saw it with my very own eyes. That was why in the 1st place I refuse to go to the gay scene until today cos I wanted to give a friend a surprise.

What the heck? I am so confused right now and a million thoughts are racing through my mind.

I am actually listening to Soulmate by Natasha Bedingfield. It explains everything, somewhat.

Who doesn't long for someone to hold? Who knows how to love you, without being told.

But the ultimate question is: What is love? Different people have different definitions of it, life is so funny. It keeps me wondering....... everyday

Is there really a soulmate for everyone?

Predictions of Nostradamus

I recently was told about the predictions of this man called Nostradamus. I got so curious about it so I watched the documentary.

To be really honest, I am kind of scared and shocked and all those feelings. I have a slight feeling that his predictions are true and that 2012 might just be the last year or something. Part of me is still hoping very much that this prediction is not true.

It is also hard not to believe cos there were so many proves, and not to mention the Mayan Calendar ends at 2012. Mayans are really smart and highly intelligent people, not to mention very accurate in their predictions.

I am sitting here, freaking out and everything. IF 2012 were to really be the end of it all, I want to be with my families and also my closes friends.

I still have something that I would really want to have before the world ends, a lover, like someone who I love a lot and also loves me a lot.

I really hope the situation improves or else Nostradamus might just be correct, please please please be wrong....

So world leaders, why let religion, cultural and language differences become a conflict? Do we really need all these? We can really live together without all those crazy things that are happening now, we really can, if we want to. Like they say, journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.

Please, if I have to plead or beg or do whatever to make all these crazy, selfish things to stop, I WILL for sure would.

Please stop the fighting, we are are only human after all......

This is the documentary on Nostradamus' predictions (via YouTube):-

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6
Part 7
Part 8

Train Ride (KUL-PEN) (Dec)

So I took a train from Kuala Lumpur back to Penang.

It was not the original idea but I had to bring a new friend,D with me and he always wanted to take the train. He is American and kinda fun to be with. He is like a girl magnet or something cos almost every single girl wants to have a piece of his meat, ahem I mean be his friend.

So we left Kuala Lumpur with the train and D was very upset cos I booked economy class sleeper. I am very what the heck? You said ok to that and there was only economy left and he was like I was pissed drunk and blah blah. Exactly, pissed drunk!

In the train he was so worried and stuff cos he wanted a cabin all to ourselves and stuff. Just for some curious people, D is not gay or bi. Ok anyways we sat at the cafeteria and talked and watched movies on my laptop cos his died or something. So he kept on bugging the train conductor if there are any places in the train with cabins cos we could not book them and guess what D did? He gave him like RM50, read as bribe or whatever D wants to call it. The conductor was furious and pushed the money back. D was shocked and walked back to us and he asked " Why didn't the guy took it?" I am like, it's bribing, it's against the law. So he was like shocked cos he expected the guy to take the money.

So blah blah blah and D went to the cabin and he was just standing there and smoking then he saw this really huge dude who took the upper sleeper cos the lower ones were all fully booked fell down while he was trying to get up. He was like huge, Barney sort of huge is not huger. D was laughing and said it was hilarious and I though so too when D was like a little boy laughing and telling me all about it, so D's face changed and he was like screaming and stuff and he ran towards the train conductors and told them the guy is having a blackout or something cos he slammed his head on the door. D was so panicked and he made the little girl who had the lower berth change sleeper with that guy. Then the night was all done....

Middle of the night like at 2am, the conductor woke us up and told us they have a free cabin cos someone did not board the train, so we took the cabin, which has only 2 sleepers. I took the one above and D got the lower berth.

D could not sleep and he was talking the whole time in the cabin and I screamed, D u better shut up or else my sock will drop on you. He kept quiet and I slept, I dunno what he did.

So we reached our station but we were sleeping like a log and the conductor was banging on the door screaming, I woke up feeling groggy, opened the door and said ok. D was sleeping like some baby or something. So I was like wake up, D and screamed wake up!!! And he was like still not moving. The room was freaking dark cos D did something to it with the towels and blankets provided. So I smack D on the shoulder or something and he freaked out and woke up. We were like zombies walking out of the train and D had to bring that box of Dunkin' Donuts that we bought a few hours ago. He took a bite out of it and said it taste like crap and I said duh, you did not close the god damn box at all for the whole night....

So we took the ferry to the island. From the terminal, we parted....

Quite eventful, I would say

Home Sweet Home (Dec)

I was home, a couple of weeks ago, it was happy, festive great food kinda of mood. I was fed very or rather too well every single day. Now I am missing home now.

I miss my friends and family

Pangkor Island (Dec)

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Ach ja!

Ok I know I haven't blog recently, I got lazy and I was in a holiday. I will post about all of my trips and stuff that I have done and obviously all my misdemeanors

Anyways I wanted to post this 1st cos I wanna remind myself as I always forget bout my results before I tell my parents.

So I had 3 papers for my term test before the holidays and I got them back, sorta cos I haven't been entering class regularly (I will explain why in future posts) so my nice classmates checked it for me.

So this is what I got:-

Distribution Center Management- 31/40

Materials Management- 39/50

Managerial Accounting and Finance- 36/45

The tutor complained bout my results for Materials Management cos he was hoping I would get above 40, oh well I am quite contented with all of my results.