So every year around this time, Chinese would go to their ancestors grave to clean up their graves, pray to them, make wishes, ask for forgiveness , it's like a yearly visit kind of thing. This occasion is called Qing Ming in Mandarin or in Penang, people would call it Cheng Beng which is in Hokkien, a Chinese dialect.
This is my 2nd time doing it and I do not mind doing it again. It is tiring and at time irritating cos of the smoke and the dirty graveyard and stuff but it did not really run to my mind at all. It's like a family thing. This year, my brother and I went, my cousin, his dad, my youngest uncle, his wife and my aunt that came back just for this occasion.
As I am writing this entry, they are at a columbarium, it's like apartments for the dead, my dad told me as I was a kid. Haha not enough space to go around for dead people so some would stay in there. I did not go along cos I am sorta of allergic to the smoke over there and I can barely open my eyes as it is an enclosed area, so they dropped me home after breakfast and took grandma instead cos she would love to pray to her late husband which is my granddad which I love so much too. I might just go visit him some other day when there are less people. It would be great if my dear could come along.
I think it is a great tradition and it reminds us of who we are and our loved ones who are not around anymore. In my case, it thought me that do not tell your departed relatives that you miss them and you love them at their grave, they are not there anymore, we should appreciate and love and cherish the family members that we have now, forget all sibling rivalries, cos at the end of the day, they ARE your family.
Ok I am very tired now and I need a short nap as I woke up at like 5 plus this morning and it's 11 something over here.
130 more days, if I am not wrong. I miss you very much if you ever stumble upon my blog.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Friday, March 28, 2008
Connections
So it is my 2nd day or 3rd day back. It has been great, getting to meet my family and all. I went swimming today and I realised that the people in the club that I always go to has changed, there are more hotties and I was cruised in the pool when I was swimming! OMG but I just looked away like a good boy does.
When I was back I told my mom someone told me I look Thai and stuff. Guess what she told me? My grandma HAS Thai blood. So now it is ok for you guys to call me Thai. Why can't they just tell me everything? Must I always ask? I think I should start asking if I am Filipino too and stuff like that. I feel already overly mixed and more mixture is welcomed. I am bored of it.
I am gonna meet several girlfriends tomorrow. It's gonna be cool and stuff!
132 more days. he's so damn busy again cos it's the end of the month......
When I was back I told my mom someone told me I look Thai and stuff. Guess what she told me? My grandma HAS Thai blood. So now it is ok for you guys to call me Thai. Why can't they just tell me everything? Must I always ask? I think I should start asking if I am Filipino too and stuff like that. I feel already overly mixed and more mixture is welcomed. I am bored of it.
I am gonna meet several girlfriends tomorrow. It's gonna be cool and stuff!
132 more days. he's so damn busy again cos it's the end of the month......
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Home Sweet Home
Well finally after much delay and stuff I am finally back home! Yesterday I was just wondering if I should go home then I just went to buy the ticket, packed my bags and come home.
I wonder how's my darling doing. Busy I guess as always.
Anyways Hello to everyone from the Pearl of the Orient! Apa khabar?
134 more days :)
I wonder how's my darling doing. Busy I guess as always.
Anyways Hello to everyone from the Pearl of the Orient! Apa khabar?
134 more days :)
Friday, March 21, 2008
Insane to the Membrane
Ok I know I think too much. My friends tell me that, my old friends tell me that, my parents tell me that, my siblings, even my lover hinted to me. Am I insane? I feel I am an obsessive person. If I were to have another me and am in love with me, I would kill that fella or would think that person is insane. I need to loosen up and seriously in desperate need to de-stress.
My significant other was kinda cold to me yesterday, bad day I guess and I got so sensitive and stuff. Thanks Gary for opening my mind. It's raining again and I am wondering if I should play in the rain. I know it would make me happy and sick at the same time.
I still remember the 1st time I wanted to tell him something which is unimportant to me and I said I'll tell you some other day cos he has to leave the office. He told me he is not gonna leave until I tell him cos he would not be able to sleep. It makes me feel very happy. Maybe the distance is bringing us apart. I hope not. I need to give him some space, definitely and seriously.
Why am I so needy? Why am I so obsessive? I need to loosen up.
I have been listening to Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol and there is one like I think that it's quite significant to me, "Those 3 words are said too much" I guess so too. He says that like not very often and I think when he says that once in a while the effect would be stronger and better. He says that like once or twice a week. Well beginning of this week when I called him we had a great conversation. He did say he loves me and stuff. Maybe to him it is not meant to be said so often. I think it is ok now. Wrote me 2 emails yesterday actually and he said he misses me very very much and he was so busy during the whole week and he can't wait to hold me again. I think that is enough for me cos at least he thinks bout me and tells me nice things and he meant it. So what am I feeling so insecure and obsessed about?
I know I complain a lot about everything and bitch bout lots of things. But I am not an asshole. I just need to talk and tell it out cos that makes me feel better every time.
I am feeling better now. The days still continues, 139 more days, can't wait. I love him
My significant other was kinda cold to me yesterday, bad day I guess and I got so sensitive and stuff. Thanks Gary for opening my mind. It's raining again and I am wondering if I should play in the rain. I know it would make me happy and sick at the same time.
I still remember the 1st time I wanted to tell him something which is unimportant to me and I said I'll tell you some other day cos he has to leave the office. He told me he is not gonna leave until I tell him cos he would not be able to sleep. It makes me feel very happy. Maybe the distance is bringing us apart. I hope not. I need to give him some space, definitely and seriously.
Why am I so needy? Why am I so obsessive? I need to loosen up.
I have been listening to Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol and there is one like I think that it's quite significant to me, "Those 3 words are said too much" I guess so too. He says that like not very often and I think when he says that once in a while the effect would be stronger and better. He says that like once or twice a week. Well beginning of this week when I called him we had a great conversation. He did say he loves me and stuff. Maybe to him it is not meant to be said so often. I think it is ok now. Wrote me 2 emails yesterday actually and he said he misses me very very much and he was so busy during the whole week and he can't wait to hold me again. I think that is enough for me cos at least he thinks bout me and tells me nice things and he meant it. So what am I feeling so insecure and obsessed about?
I know I complain a lot about everything and bitch bout lots of things. But I am not an asshole. I just need to talk and tell it out cos that makes me feel better every time.
I am feeling better now. The days still continues, 139 more days, can't wait. I love him
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Come Home
This is the song that I have been listening. It reflects my feelings. It is Come Home by OneRepublic. I have not noticed them before cos apparently they were producers but now they are sort of singing and I would say they are good. Well I am not sure whether it's he or they. Here are the lyrics:-
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in their own place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll..
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home
Oooh
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oooh
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
So hear this now
[Chorus}
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home
Lyrics taken from Metro Lyrics
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in their own place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll..
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home
Oooh
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then
[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oooh
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
So hear this now
[Chorus}
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home
Lyrics taken from Metro Lyrics
Sweet Memories
I has been 1 month and 2 days since we 1st met each other and had a long walk around the city and had several drinks and stuff.
On exactly 1 month I call him, before that he sent me a sms saying, Happy 1 month. Well it might sound really short to some but to us, more for him, he felt like it was already a year.
Yes this blog has been full of him in most of my posts and stuff, that's because he's the only person and the only thing in my mind.
Tomorrow is my retaking of the paper which I failed, wish me luck.
The sun was shinning like mad the past 2 days and today it's raining heavily but it stopped a few hours ago.
A Question:-
Does anyone know a call card or some VOIP programme that enables me to call South African Mobile at a very cheap rate? Cos using skype is costing me too much recently. Thank you very much for the comment/responses. Thank you again.
On exactly 1 month I call him, before that he sent me a sms saying, Happy 1 month. Well it might sound really short to some but to us, more for him, he felt like it was already a year.
Yes this blog has been full of him in most of my posts and stuff, that's because he's the only person and the only thing in my mind.
Tomorrow is my retaking of the paper which I failed, wish me luck.
The sun was shinning like mad the past 2 days and today it's raining heavily but it stopped a few hours ago.
A Question:-
Does anyone know a call card or some VOIP programme that enables me to call South African Mobile at a very cheap rate? Cos using skype is costing me too much recently. Thank you very much for the comment/responses. Thank you again.
Are Horoscopes True?
I have been always interested in horoscope ever since small and sometimes I find them quite true.
But I am wondering if daily horoscope is true and I just figure out the answer myself:-
If it's true, then millions of people would be having the same reading which is of course not true because people of the same star sign would be experiencing different thing.
I think that the explanation of your star, in general is to a certain extend true.
My daily reading said that I would have a happy day today and so is yesterday. The reading is wrong. I have been stressed out, frustrated, unhappy and lonesome. None of which would be a happy feeling. There are just too much things running in this head of mind. I wish I can shut it out for like 1 hour and it would actually do me A LOT of good. Keep me sane at least.
Gimme your views.
I will be waiting for you for another 141 more days. Do you know I miss you so very much?
But I am wondering if daily horoscope is true and I just figure out the answer myself:-
If it's true, then millions of people would be having the same reading which is of course not true because people of the same star sign would be experiencing different thing.
I think that the explanation of your star, in general is to a certain extend true.
My daily reading said that I would have a happy day today and so is yesterday. The reading is wrong. I have been stressed out, frustrated, unhappy and lonesome. None of which would be a happy feeling. There are just too much things running in this head of mind. I wish I can shut it out for like 1 hour and it would actually do me A LOT of good. Keep me sane at least.
Gimme your views.
I will be waiting for you for another 141 more days. Do you know I miss you so very much?
Sunday, March 16, 2008
A Sensitive Statement
Have you ever had a racist comment towards you? If your answer is no, maybe a racist statement from someone who they might not direct it to you but to others?
So this is my point, it is never nice giving a racist comment unless you comment YOURSELF 1st. I was having a walk and there were these children playing, it looked like a happy game until this boy, who is a Chinese said something like "you (race) unless lah, always like to cheat". I was shocked, well not that I have never heard of these comment before it's just that the people there are your friends or at least playmates, how can you say that? And the a girl just said "Jangan bagi budak (race) bola itu" which means Don't give that (race) boy the ball. Don't people have names? I mean hello???? I am sure their names isn't that hard to call! But I have to admit that Chinese names are hard to call, cos I have trouble pronouncing my friends' name properly too.
So to continue, one of my classmate just to label people according to their race, like M for Malay, C for Chinese and I for Indian, I am not gonna say which race did he. He's a Chinese. He would be going around and say like "Oh typical (race)" until one point that I could not take it, I told him off, "Hey, that is part of my race too ok, so respect people or I'll start calling you names" He was like whatever..... I wanted to spank him HARD! Ok sounds SM-ish but no.
Well now over to the other side of the world, hmmm which place 1st? How bout America? Ok I know not all Americans say this but A LOT of them, is like when they see someones' name who has the word Mohammand or bin in poeple's name, they would think that they are terrorist. I am like HELLO! It's their name, so you have other mass murderers with a name of John, David or something people would not call you insane or a murderer right? And what? All Muslims are terrorists??? I mean OMG grow up man you guys, we all know that Americans are fat and dumb but we do not always say that, do we? The answer is no cos WE know that not ALL are dumb and fat. Sheesh man you guys.
How bout ermmmm Chinese has small tools?? Well I have to admit when I am writing this I am laughing but NO I don't think so, my pilgrimage of sexual therapy has led me to several people of different ethnicity and I mean yeah some are bigger than the others but there are exceptions ok. I am not gonna go into the details cos it might freak some readers out.
Hmmm and the Europeans? I mean Western Europeans? Oh my goodness, don't even get me started. How many pure European friends that I have made them suffer for being racist *smirk* One almost got expelled from school the day before Abitur (Sort of like Diploma equivalent but done in 'Gymnasium' which we would call it as high school). Haha and some Czech made fun of me cos I don't speak Czech. I mean hello? I am here for a holiday! And what? At least I do not stay in pigeon holes and not as poor as you guys. Pfui! I mean sorry for the racist remarks but I yelled at them and they are like OMG you speak German, I'm like yeah so lick my shoes now! :P No, I am not that bad, I just said yes and walked away. They were stunned. Looks can be deceiving, I might look dumb sometimes but I am not. Oh Italians! My favourite one. Out of 10 Italians that I have met, 6 are racist and guess what? They are the ones who are NOT staying IN Italy! Wanna be racist and overseas? OMG Horrible! I just don't wanna say what they did, it's just so degrading. My advice to all overseas racist Italians, if you wanna be racist, GO HOME! But the irony is that my best friend in Germany is half Italian, half German, she's so hot! Everyone wants to do her, I mean befriend her LOL. And my French teacher over here in Singapore? He is nice, but I have to admit, I am kinda harsh on him sometimes. Haha the days where he tries to make me pronounce French words properly and I pronounce it the German way makes him so angry! Precious! Sorry Mr Gullotti, I was just fooling around cos I HAVE to admit French classes are kinda boring esp when the students are half dead.
Oh I am so tired of this post, so much to say yet so lazy to type, I guess I'll just leave it this way. If I have anything to add, I'll just make a new post.
Oh to all racist people, GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!! Whooops sorry for my vulgarity.
PS: I know I make racist comments sometimes BUT I always include my race, erm any 3 of it. Like Chinese, slit eyes, Malay lazy or Portuguese sardines. LOL Happy now?
To people who feels discontented about this post, just keep it to yourself COS It's my life, so shut up! UNLESS I made fun of you which isn't a part of me. Toodles
So this is my point, it is never nice giving a racist comment unless you comment YOURSELF 1st. I was having a walk and there were these children playing, it looked like a happy game until this boy, who is a Chinese said something like "you (race) unless lah, always like to cheat". I was shocked, well not that I have never heard of these comment before it's just that the people there are your friends or at least playmates, how can you say that? And the a girl just said "Jangan bagi budak (race) bola itu" which means Don't give that (race) boy the ball. Don't people have names? I mean hello???? I am sure their names isn't that hard to call! But I have to admit that Chinese names are hard to call, cos I have trouble pronouncing my friends' name properly too.
So to continue, one of my classmate just to label people according to their race, like M for Malay, C for Chinese and I for Indian, I am not gonna say which race did he. He's a Chinese. He would be going around and say like "Oh typical (race)" until one point that I could not take it, I told him off, "Hey, that is part of my race too ok, so respect people or I'll start calling you names" He was like whatever..... I wanted to spank him HARD! Ok sounds SM-ish but no.
Well now over to the other side of the world, hmmm which place 1st? How bout America? Ok I know not all Americans say this but A LOT of them, is like when they see someones' name who has the word Mohammand or bin in poeple's name, they would think that they are terrorist. I am like HELLO! It's their name, so you have other mass murderers with a name of John, David or something people would not call you insane or a murderer right? And what? All Muslims are terrorists??? I mean OMG grow up man you guys, we all know that Americans are fat and dumb but we do not always say that, do we? The answer is no cos WE know that not ALL are dumb and fat. Sheesh man you guys.
How bout ermmmm Chinese has small tools?? Well I have to admit when I am writing this I am laughing but NO I don't think so, my pilgrimage of sexual therapy has led me to several people of different ethnicity and I mean yeah some are bigger than the others but there are exceptions ok. I am not gonna go into the details cos it might freak some readers out.
Hmmm and the Europeans? I mean Western Europeans? Oh my goodness, don't even get me started. How many pure European friends that I have made them suffer for being racist *smirk* One almost got expelled from school the day before Abitur (Sort of like Diploma equivalent but done in 'Gymnasium' which we would call it as high school). Haha and some Czech made fun of me cos I don't speak Czech. I mean hello? I am here for a holiday! And what? At least I do not stay in pigeon holes and not as poor as you guys. Pfui! I mean sorry for the racist remarks but I yelled at them and they are like OMG you speak German, I'm like yeah so lick my shoes now! :P No, I am not that bad, I just said yes and walked away. They were stunned. Looks can be deceiving, I might look dumb sometimes but I am not. Oh Italians! My favourite one. Out of 10 Italians that I have met, 6 are racist and guess what? They are the ones who are NOT staying IN Italy! Wanna be racist and overseas? OMG Horrible! I just don't wanna say what they did, it's just so degrading. My advice to all overseas racist Italians, if you wanna be racist, GO HOME! But the irony is that my best friend in Germany is half Italian, half German, she's so hot! Everyone wants to do her, I mean befriend her LOL. And my French teacher over here in Singapore? He is nice, but I have to admit, I am kinda harsh on him sometimes. Haha the days where he tries to make me pronounce French words properly and I pronounce it the German way makes him so angry! Precious! Sorry Mr Gullotti, I was just fooling around cos I HAVE to admit French classes are kinda boring esp when the students are half dead.
Oh I am so tired of this post, so much to say yet so lazy to type, I guess I'll just leave it this way. If I have anything to add, I'll just make a new post.
Oh to all racist people, GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!! Whooops sorry for my vulgarity.
PS: I know I make racist comments sometimes BUT I always include my race, erm any 3 of it. Like Chinese, slit eyes, Malay lazy or Portuguese sardines. LOL Happy now?
To people who feels discontented about this post, just keep it to yourself COS It's my life, so shut up! UNLESS I made fun of you which isn't a part of me. Toodles
Wake Up Sms
How would you react if your lover sms you that he is fucking drunk and girls are flirting with him? Well for me I straight away woke up and asked if he's alright and all of his smses are not convincing cos it sounds wrong, the spelling is bad and I have to guess most of the words. So I straight away gave him a call without thinking anymore and he told me to trust him, he loves me and that he is faithful. I mean I was worried or something, I dunno. I do not want this thing to happen to me cos I love him so much.
After that he told me not to worry. I replied, how not to worry when I love you so much and you're drunk and vulnerable and tonnes of girls are flirting with you? But thank you very much for telling them that you're attached, I love you for that. It worries me STILL, I dunno why. All your smses and stuff after my call is good and assuring.
I don't know, I guess as people always tell me, I think too much. I think so too. I need to learn how to loosen up.
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After that he told me not to worry. I replied, how not to worry when I love you so much and you're drunk and vulnerable and tonnes of girls are flirting with you? But thank you very much for telling them that you're attached, I love you for that. It worries me STILL, I dunno why. All your smses and stuff after my call is good and assuring.
I don't know, I guess as people always tell me, I think too much. I think so too. I need to learn how to loosen up.
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Saturday, March 15, 2008
My Dear N
In everyone's life there's that one person who makes all the difference. In my life, that person is you. I love you and I miss you like crazy every single second.
The days are feeling like weeks and the weeks are feeling like month but I will be right here waiting for you everyday.
I know I might sound crazy or out of my mind in this post but I am not, I am just in love.
The days are feeling like weeks and the weeks are feeling like month but I will be right here waiting for you everyday.
I know I might sound crazy or out of my mind in this post but I am not, I am just in love.
Question
Ok I recently read bout Brazilian wax, I am just wondering if a guy were to do it, will the person who is gonna wax him touch his private part? I am a total idiot in this, that is why I am posting this question.
I have quite a bad feeling about this Brazilian wax thing cos in an article they say it is quite sexual, the touch and stuff.
I do not want that to happen to my dear cos he does Brazilian wax and stuff and I asked him this question, he told me not to worry cos it's gals who are doing it for him. I was thinking, still they are touching him sexually right? How would he like it when a girl touches me sexually WITH him knowing it? I mean I have an uneasy feeling here. Why the sexual touch? OMG I can't get this off my mind. I need some help here.
Seriously, I need an answer from whoever who reads this post. Thank you.
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I have quite a bad feeling about this Brazilian wax thing cos in an article they say it is quite sexual, the touch and stuff.
I do not want that to happen to my dear cos he does Brazilian wax and stuff and I asked him this question, he told me not to worry cos it's gals who are doing it for him. I was thinking, still they are touching him sexually right? How would he like it when a girl touches me sexually WITH him knowing it? I mean I have an uneasy feeling here. Why the sexual touch? OMG I can't get this off my mind. I need some help here.
Seriously, I need an answer from whoever who reads this post. Thank you.
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Friday, March 14, 2008
Wednesday Luck and A Plea
I know I wrote that I failed my Organisational Behaviour paper for my main exam on Wednesday.
Guess what else happened? I went to the mall to meet some of my friends for dinner and chat and stuff cos they wanna cheer me up, something add up for THAT particular day being the worst day of my life, I lost my wallet. It is a black wallet which I always take it around cos it's smaller than the LV wallet that I have. ALL and I mean ALL of my cards are in there. I can't leave the country and if I leave I am not allowed to enter back AS a student. I almost cried. My Visa card, ATM card, Cash, CashCard, Malaysian IC, Student Pass, Embarkation/Disembarkation Card, Matriculation Card and Student Ez-link Card ALL gone, finito! I went to the police station to make a report and had to call up the banks to stop all of my cards. Luckily I was with my friends at that time, so they lent me some money.
I beg to the person who found my wallet please gimme back all of my cards, I only want my cards, you can have my black JM wallet and the cash, I don't give a damn I just want back my cards. It is not a nice feeling knowing that you have no identification by your side and having to just carry a police report when I go out just in case they check.
I have found cash and wallets and stuff and I gave it back to their rightful owner, can someone PLEASE return that favour back? I am wondering how is $10 gonna last me for 2 days when normally it can't last me for a day. Should I eat grass? :(
I have to forfeit my flight, failed ONE paper, lose my wallet, I HAD a really bad day. Seriously
146 days to go
Guess what else happened? I went to the mall to meet some of my friends for dinner and chat and stuff cos they wanna cheer me up, something add up for THAT particular day being the worst day of my life, I lost my wallet. It is a black wallet which I always take it around cos it's smaller than the LV wallet that I have. ALL and I mean ALL of my cards are in there. I can't leave the country and if I leave I am not allowed to enter back AS a student. I almost cried. My Visa card, ATM card, Cash, CashCard, Malaysian IC, Student Pass, Embarkation/Disembarkation Card, Matriculation Card and Student Ez-link Card ALL gone, finito! I went to the police station to make a report and had to call up the banks to stop all of my cards. Luckily I was with my friends at that time, so they lent me some money.
I beg to the person who found my wallet please gimme back all of my cards, I only want my cards, you can have my black JM wallet and the cash, I don't give a damn I just want back my cards. It is not a nice feeling knowing that you have no identification by your side and having to just carry a police report when I go out just in case they check.
I have found cash and wallets and stuff and I gave it back to their rightful owner, can someone PLEASE return that favour back? I am wondering how is $10 gonna last me for 2 days when normally it can't last me for a day. Should I eat grass? :(
I have to forfeit my flight, failed ONE paper, lose my wallet, I HAD a really bad day. Seriously
146 days to go
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Reality of My Results
Well my friend gave me a call this morning and I thought what was so urgent. He told me our results are out and call me to check my smses, I have 5 smses and 1 of them are my results, all looked fine except ONE, Organisational Behaviour. I failed it. I will have to go to the revision this Friday and take the exam again the following week. I have so much running in my mind now and I do not know how to put in into words. Well I failed one subject and I did not do really well this semester.
Was the fortune teller correct? I guess so. My school will suffer because of my love life. I guess I should just try to stop thinking bout him during exams. He told me to forget bout him during exams but how the heck can I?
Now I shall try to calm down and start studying tomorrow and everyday after that. I just want to pass this paper and be over with it. Maybe cos I have not been having good results for this paper. I am determined to pass it this time.
It's raining here.
148 days
Was the fortune teller correct? I guess so. My school will suffer because of my love life. I guess I should just try to stop thinking bout him during exams. He told me to forget bout him during exams but how the heck can I?
Now I shall try to calm down and start studying tomorrow and everyday after that. I just want to pass this paper and be over with it. Maybe cos I have not been having good results for this paper. I am determined to pass it this time.
It's raining here.
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Sunday, March 9, 2008
Everyone's Back Home
Well 2008 is something cos most of my family members came back. My cousin who was staying in NYC came back and my brother in England came back too, he even gave up the permanent residence to come home, good for you. Everyone's home except me. I know how it feels to be back home after such a long time being away. It's like a pilgrimage except that you're in a city. My cousin and brother is back mostly for good or for almost a year. We miss each other. I can't wait to go home next week. At last the home would be 4 people again. The weirdest thing is when my brother is back I am away and when I am back he's away. Like when I left for Germany, he just came back from England and when I come back from Germany he left for England and when I left for Singapore he came back. I haven't seen him for 3 years? That's kinda long and I hope we recognise each other. I remember I was walking once and someone came up to me asking if I know her, I said no. She was so sad and I asked why, she told me she's my cousin, I'm like OMG, she changed so much, from the small girl she's a grown up and sexy and not to mention those assets LOL. Ok Well I was just thinking bout this. Gotta go now. Sorry for the bad English!
New Toy and Other Stuff
Well I received my new phone yesterday morning and until now I am still tired from the hang over of Friday and waking up early to receive the delivery of my phone. I am going to St. James Powerhouse later for some party. It's called Fabulous Sunday. I am very tired but I wanna try it out and I can only try it when I am on holidays.
Well my new toy is a Sony Erricsson W660i. I am still getting use to this phone cos my previous phone was Nokia 7600, I know it is kinda old but I love it cos it's unique. It is kinda nice just that the messaging is a little bit different.
Ok I had an appointment and a seminar to attend yesterday, I only went for 1 which is the appointment. It was for California Fitness. THEY SUCK BIG TIME. So pushy AND loads of empty promises. I told them I am 19 and they said OH I am sorry but you need to be 21 to receive this pass. I am like you just wasted 2 hours of my life. And how do you expect me to sign up for a 1 year membership when the most I will be here for 8 months per year? 4 months which is $600 will go to waste! I could go to Thailand AND back for a week already! OMG. Insane. So the seminar that I was suppose to attend is a songwriting workshop, ok workshop. I skipped it and I paid for it! Fok you Cali Fitness :( Ok I might sound very money minded in this post cos I am currently thinking bout money.
I have so many things to say but I am too lazy to write. Need to look good for clubbing tonight, I'll be back after midnight!
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Well my new toy is a Sony Erricsson W660i. I am still getting use to this phone cos my previous phone was Nokia 7600, I know it is kinda old but I love it cos it's unique. It is kinda nice just that the messaging is a little bit different.
Ok I had an appointment and a seminar to attend yesterday, I only went for 1 which is the appointment. It was for California Fitness. THEY SUCK BIG TIME. So pushy AND loads of empty promises. I told them I am 19 and they said OH I am sorry but you need to be 21 to receive this pass. I am like you just wasted 2 hours of my life. And how do you expect me to sign up for a 1 year membership when the most I will be here for 8 months per year? 4 months which is $600 will go to waste! I could go to Thailand AND back for a week already! OMG. Insane. So the seminar that I was suppose to attend is a songwriting workshop, ok workshop. I skipped it and I paid for it! Fok you Cali Fitness :( Ok I might sound very money minded in this post cos I am currently thinking bout money.
I have so many things to say but I am too lazy to write. Need to look good for clubbing tonight, I'll be back after midnight!
151 hari
Malaysian Elections!
Well the elections are over in Malaysia and as usual the National Party, Barisan Nasional won but with less seats. Well so many things has happened over the past few years and people would wanna try out a new government but oh well they won, but they lost 5 states which is Penang, where I come from, Kedah, Perak, Selangor and Kelantan. I am not surprised for Kelantan they always vote for the same party ever since which is quite a radical party I would say but no comments.
Anyways I would love to see some new AND good changes soon. I hope everyone buck up! Till 2012, the next election. Au revoir!
Anyways I would love to see some new AND good changes soon. I hope everyone buck up! Till 2012, the next election. Au revoir!
Friday, March 7, 2008
Jealous Souls
I was out partying yesterday and I saw several schoolmates of mine. It was nice cos we talked bout everything and my friend,D which I always go partying with is meeting people at last :) I am happy for him.
D went out for awhile and so I was with my other schoolmates and we talked bout several things and everything was really fun, we are networking cos they know several people and I know several people as well too.
I saw this guy at the corner that was talking to my friends and I recognise him. I went over to say hi. Here is the conversation, to sum it all:-
Moi: Hey, I think I've seen you before
Him: Yeah, I am J's friend (J is a partying friend of mine)
Moi: Oh ok, I think I have seen you in Friendster before
Him: Yeah, N's profile
Moi: Oh (smiling) yeah we're dating
Him: Are you? He is actually dating my friend. They are together
Moi: Ermmmmm I don't think so, he is dating me
Him: Well the last time I know he was with my best friend and they ARE together
Moi: So you're trying to say he is dating me and your friend?
Him: Maybe, but more with my best friend
Moi: Hmm I don't think so
Him: Well up to you, I have to go now, catch ya later
Moi: Bye
Ok after this conversation I was DEVASTATED. Suddenly my phone vibrate and I received a message, it says hey how are you and all those stuff that my dear use to send me cos I called him before going partying. I replied:- I am fine, are you actually dating someone else? Please be honest.
A few seconds later replied:- OMG of course not and things, I don't really remember.
I replied:- Are you sure? Someone told me blah blah blah
He called, we had a very long conversation. The phone call is gonna cost him at least $100, seriously.
The conclusion is that yes a lot of guys at the place that I go to has crushes on my dear and they tried to date him but failed cos he do not like them and he loves me and me only. These people are out to break my relationship with him cos they want him so badly. The guy that told me that has a HUGE crush on my darling too. He explained everything and we were both devastated bout it and we promise each other to NOT trust anyone before it is our relationship and we have to protect it. I am so very happy he called up and wasted him time and money and everything just to explain to me things. He is the one for me. No one has ever treated me so well. He said he is sorry for being so far and not being able to be there to really explain things and to prove his love. I did not know jealous souls exists in this bar, now I know. They will try doing ANYTHING to destroy my relationship and I am not gonna let that happen. I love you my dear, very much and thank you so much.
And the days continues......... 153 more days till we are united
D went out for awhile and so I was with my other schoolmates and we talked bout several things and everything was really fun, we are networking cos they know several people and I know several people as well too.
I saw this guy at the corner that was talking to my friends and I recognise him. I went over to say hi. Here is the conversation, to sum it all:-
Moi: Hey, I think I've seen you before
Him: Yeah, I am J's friend (J is a partying friend of mine)
Moi: Oh ok, I think I have seen you in Friendster before
Him: Yeah, N's profile
Moi: Oh (smiling) yeah we're dating
Him: Are you? He is actually dating my friend. They are together
Moi: Ermmmmm I don't think so, he is dating me
Him: Well the last time I know he was with my best friend and they ARE together
Moi: So you're trying to say he is dating me and your friend?
Him: Maybe, but more with my best friend
Moi: Hmm I don't think so
Him: Well up to you, I have to go now, catch ya later
Moi: Bye
Ok after this conversation I was DEVASTATED. Suddenly my phone vibrate and I received a message, it says hey how are you and all those stuff that my dear use to send me cos I called him before going partying. I replied:- I am fine, are you actually dating someone else? Please be honest.
A few seconds later replied:- OMG of course not and things, I don't really remember.
I replied:- Are you sure? Someone told me blah blah blah
He called, we had a very long conversation. The phone call is gonna cost him at least $100, seriously.
The conclusion is that yes a lot of guys at the place that I go to has crushes on my dear and they tried to date him but failed cos he do not like them and he loves me and me only. These people are out to break my relationship with him cos they want him so badly. The guy that told me that has a HUGE crush on my darling too. He explained everything and we were both devastated bout it and we promise each other to NOT trust anyone before it is our relationship and we have to protect it. I am so very happy he called up and wasted him time and money and everything just to explain to me things. He is the one for me. No one has ever treated me so well. He said he is sorry for being so far and not being able to be there to really explain things and to prove his love. I did not know jealous souls exists in this bar, now I know. They will try doing ANYTHING to destroy my relationship and I am not gonna let that happen. I love you my dear, very much and thank you so much.
And the days continues......... 153 more days till we are united
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Rainy Day, Moody Day
Well it rained practically the whole day and it sucks. I was hoping to feel the warmth of the sun on my skin, oh I can so feel it. Wo bist du mein Sonnenschien? :(
I feel so homely today so I just went out to have lunch and dinner, I had Japanese for lunch and KFC for dinner, I am not following my usual eating habits cos I ate fast food..... Well blame it on the weather! Not my fault. LOL
I feel moody and lonely today. I am a little impatient as well. I eat unhealthily and I haven't been eating vegetables or fruits cos the weather is so bad :(
I feel kinda bitchy but I am too tired to bitch.
Ok this is getting no where. I did several things today but I think it is way too boring to write it here.
I know my blog is boring, well as I said, it's my life, so shut up. If u don't like it, leave! Ciao ciao
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I feel so homely today so I just went out to have lunch and dinner, I had Japanese for lunch and KFC for dinner, I am not following my usual eating habits cos I ate fast food..... Well blame it on the weather! Not my fault. LOL
I feel moody and lonely today. I am a little impatient as well. I eat unhealthily and I haven't been eating vegetables or fruits cos the weather is so bad :(
I feel kinda bitchy but I am too tired to bitch.
Ok this is getting no where. I did several things today but I think it is way too boring to write it here.
I know my blog is boring, well as I said, it's my life, so shut up. If u don't like it, leave! Ciao ciao
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Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Today in My Life
Well I watched a movie today which is the best movie that I have ever watched, The Leap Years.
It is produced locally which got me shedding tears the whole time. In Ed's Book of Records only this movie has made me cry for almost the whole duration of the movie. The title tells you only a very small part of the movie, it is very clever. The movie is a MUST see. If you wanna know more bout the movie, this is the website.
Lots of the people in the movie are mixed race. Paula Malai Ali is there, I am so bored of her..... We have more mixed races around why choose her? Oh yeah cos she's famous..... They should have taken me! Dang. LOL. OH Vanessa Lopez has the same heritage line as me! Yippie! No wonder we look the same. Heh, kidding, she's a female and I am a male, am I? Yeah of course I am! Hmph!
Here are some quotes from the movie:
"Miss" is more often written in love letters than "Love"
Coincidence is God's way of anonymity
Anyways something happened between me and my darling today, something good. I love you too. We are one :)
So in Malaysia, election day was yesterday I think and it is the election fever! I will not say who I support cos it's too risky.
It is produced locally which got me shedding tears the whole time. In Ed's Book of Records only this movie has made me cry for almost the whole duration of the movie. The title tells you only a very small part of the movie, it is very clever. The movie is a MUST see. If you wanna know more bout the movie, this is the website.
Lots of the people in the movie are mixed race. Paula Malai Ali is there, I am so bored of her..... We have more mixed races around why choose her? Oh yeah cos she's famous..... They should have taken me! Dang. LOL. OH Vanessa Lopez has the same heritage line as me! Yippie! No wonder we look the same. Heh, kidding, she's a female and I am a male, am I? Yeah of course I am! Hmph!
Here are some quotes from the movie:
"Miss" is more often written in love letters than "Love"
Coincidence is God's way of anonymity
Anyways something happened between me and my darling today, something good. I love you too. We are one :)
So in Malaysia, election day was yesterday I think and it is the election fever! I will not say who I support cos it's too risky.
Mozzies
Mosquitoes love me so much. They come to me like a magnet, ONLY when I eat bananas.
That is why at some point I stopped eating it but bananas are so delicious. Well I found out a few years back that bananas actually create a chemical in your body that attract mosquitoes. That explains! AND to prevent mosquitoes from loving you, eat citrus fruits.
Oh yeah I read it from a magazine called Alterni, an alternative medicine magazine. Most of the stuff there are very useful and I am sorta this alternative medicine fan. :)
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That is why at some point I stopped eating it but bananas are so delicious. Well I found out a few years back that bananas actually create a chemical in your body that attract mosquitoes. That explains! AND to prevent mosquitoes from loving you, eat citrus fruits.
Oh yeah I read it from a magazine called Alterni, an alternative medicine magazine. Most of the stuff there are very useful and I am sorta this alternative medicine fan. :)
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Monday, March 3, 2008
A Wish in Me
Ok after this post, some people might think I am crazy or something. Well it is never wrong to wish or think bout things.
Everytime I see the Singapore Flyer, I am fascinated. Maybe because it is a big ferris wheel to me and I grew up liking ferris wheels. I know Malaysia and London has it and Melbourne is building one, or is it Sydney?
Hmm I dunno BUT now I am in Singapore so I am talking bout the Singapore one. Singapore decided to build it in response to the Eye on Malaysia.
Ok, so enough of history.
Well it is completed.
Everytime I see the Singapore Flyer, I would think of this:
Someone (My darling, of course and hopefully) proposing to me right on top there and while he kneels down with one leg and hands out the ring and ask me the word "Would you marry me?" and fireworks starts flying around. Ferris wheel and fireworks, the 2 things that I am fascinated about. I would be the happiest person on Earth. Well of course I did not tell this crazy thing to my dear because he might think I am insane or something. I did tell him if he'd go up there, once it is completed. I think the answer was he has been to the one in London and the one in Singapore does not look as good as the one in London.
The thought of this thing makes me smile. Haha people might think I am insane but I don't care. Well of course my ultimate wish is to be with him, whether or not the ferris wheel and fireworks thing some true, that is a different matter, it is just a wishful thinking. I do not need to be showered with lavish and expensive gifts and all those stuff cos I just want the person.
157 days till I see you again
Everytime I see the Singapore Flyer, I am fascinated. Maybe because it is a big ferris wheel to me and I grew up liking ferris wheels. I know Malaysia and London has it and Melbourne is building one, or is it Sydney?
Hmm I dunno BUT now I am in Singapore so I am talking bout the Singapore one. Singapore decided to build it in response to the Eye on Malaysia.
Ok, so enough of history.
Well it is completed.
Everytime I see the Singapore Flyer, I would think of this:
Someone (My darling, of course and hopefully) proposing to me right on top there and while he kneels down with one leg and hands out the ring and ask me the word "Would you marry me?" and fireworks starts flying around. Ferris wheel and fireworks, the 2 things that I am fascinated about. I would be the happiest person on Earth. Well of course I did not tell this crazy thing to my dear because he might think I am insane or something. I did tell him if he'd go up there, once it is completed. I think the answer was he has been to the one in London and the one in Singapore does not look as good as the one in London.
The thought of this thing makes me smile. Haha people might think I am insane but I don't care. Well of course my ultimate wish is to be with him, whether or not the ferris wheel and fireworks thing some true, that is a different matter, it is just a wishful thinking. I do not need to be showered with lavish and expensive gifts and all those stuff cos I just want the person.
157 days till I see you again
Sunday, March 2, 2008
The Call
My dear called me and told me that he feels very lonely in his new apartment and he wanted to talk to me. I love him so much. We talked bout so many things and stuff like that. I dunno I am just very happy. I love you, N. Miss you like crazy
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157 as of my time
Hotline That I Hate To Call
UOB Bank! Singapore's richest but the worst in their telephone operator services. Everytime when I call to enquire something bout my card or bank account I would have to wait at least 20 mins before they pick it up cos apparently they are too busy. Well you're the richest bank in Singapore, why not employ more people? What? Too many vacancies but low employment rate? Well advertise overseas then..... Everyday I see a million job vacancies in the newspapers BUT the employment rate in Singapore is so low that we have so much vacancies. Haha, well no wonder they would wanna steal and bring in foreign talents. Bitches!
UOB Bank cheats people too. I got a new replacement for my Visa card cos some bitch cashier broke it and I had to like explain to them it is not my fault that the card broke and stuff and they say ok I don't have to pay that stupid $20 for a dumb plastic card. And they change the card completely. Now I have a fugly bronze or brown card which has no design at all AND all the details are different. While when I 1st call them up they told me that everything would be the same but now everything is different except my name. I want my beautiful sea blue card back! Now I need to wait for 1 week before I can use this chocolate card. For now I have to use my sexy small Visa which is so small. But can't withdraw money. What? No money? :( Dang! I need cash please.....
UOB Bank cheats people too. I got a new replacement for my Visa card cos some bitch cashier broke it and I had to like explain to them it is not my fault that the card broke and stuff and they say ok I don't have to pay that stupid $20 for a dumb plastic card. And they change the card completely. Now I have a fugly bronze or brown card which has no design at all AND all the details are different. While when I 1st call them up they told me that everything would be the same but now everything is different except my name. I want my beautiful sea blue card back! Now I need to wait for 1 week before I can use this chocolate card. For now I have to use my sexy small Visa which is so small. But can't withdraw money. What? No money? :( Dang! I need cash please.....
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Sunday Morning
I am wondering if I should continue the numbers.
I tried calling him yesterday like 5 times and 4 of them went to his voice box and 1 was hung up cos the reception was bad. I wasted all of my credits calling him.
I sent him 3 smses instead.
He gave me 2 replies one telling me bout the reception problem and he'll sms me when I can call him. Is there a time there I can call him and times that I am not allowed to call him? The 2nd one is hope you have a great Sunday and he was having dinner with boss and stuff but he'll catch up with me.
I am confused.
Maybe cos what I heard from his friend yesterday made me wonder and feel insecure. I know I should trust him and I know those marks that they were talking bout are from me but I feel like I have been left behind.
Well yesterday I just went to the bars for 1 hour, a record time then I left home with the last train. I think I am thinking bout him too much and it is taking control over me and I told him I would be back by 1am and I'd call him.
Well maybe I just need some time to get use to the fact that he is very far away and we can't always contact each other and all we know is that we misses each other a lot and we love each other.
I am feeling a little better already after writing this. Well I would be waiting for him to reply to my sms which I sent him this afternoon which is morning his time.
I am listening to Sunday Morning by Maroon 5 and the irony is that it was Sunday morning and it has been raining. Hah. Maybe cos I am thinking bout him. I will try to do something today but I still do not know, I would like to dancing in the rain. I use to do that when I was small but now all grown up people would think I am mad. I feel like I am gonna be ill cos there is this feeling in my throat and stuff like that. Oh well..........
Rain drops keep falling on my head............
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I tried calling him yesterday like 5 times and 4 of them went to his voice box and 1 was hung up cos the reception was bad. I wasted all of my credits calling him.
I sent him 3 smses instead.
He gave me 2 replies one telling me bout the reception problem and he'll sms me when I can call him. Is there a time there I can call him and times that I am not allowed to call him? The 2nd one is hope you have a great Sunday and he was having dinner with boss and stuff but he'll catch up with me.
I am confused.
Maybe cos what I heard from his friend yesterday made me wonder and feel insecure. I know I should trust him and I know those marks that they were talking bout are from me but I feel like I have been left behind.
Well yesterday I just went to the bars for 1 hour, a record time then I left home with the last train. I think I am thinking bout him too much and it is taking control over me and I told him I would be back by 1am and I'd call him.
Well maybe I just need some time to get use to the fact that he is very far away and we can't always contact each other and all we know is that we misses each other a lot and we love each other.
I am feeling a little better already after writing this. Well I would be waiting for him to reply to my sms which I sent him this afternoon which is morning his time.
I am listening to Sunday Morning by Maroon 5 and the irony is that it was Sunday morning and it has been raining. Hah. Maybe cos I am thinking bout him. I will try to do something today but I still do not know, I would like to dancing in the rain. I use to do that when I was small but now all grown up people would think I am mad. I feel like I am gonna be ill cos there is this feeling in my throat and stuff like that. Oh well..........
Rain drops keep falling on my head............
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Of Chores & Clubs
Well it's my holiday now, and yesterday I went clubbing.
I went to one of the worst club ever. The name is Taboo, they have really pretty and hot bartenders, the crowd is okay to not good cos not much hot people but it's not like I care, the music is terrible. Normally I can just loose it but the music is terrible and I can't even like get it started. My friends were complaining bout the music cos we can't shake it properly, at the end we smack each others behind instead cos it's so boring and we attracted the wrong people LOL. This guys were thinking that we are luring them, dream on baby!
Hmmm I forgot what I wanted to say...... So I might be going out today, most probably to Play cos it plays really good much and I can move to it.
Well I would wanna finish up my house chores before going clubbing or whatever, I need to:-
1. Grocery shopping
2. Do the laundry
3. Change my towels and bedsheets
4. Change the thing in my cupboard, dehumidifier I think
5. Return back my friend's books to her
I guess it is not a tough job, the worst one I'd probably do it next week which is clearing up my room. It looks like a warzone and everything is everywhere.
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I went to one of the worst club ever. The name is Taboo, they have really pretty and hot bartenders, the crowd is okay to not good cos not much hot people but it's not like I care, the music is terrible. Normally I can just loose it but the music is terrible and I can't even like get it started. My friends were complaining bout the music cos we can't shake it properly, at the end we smack each others behind instead cos it's so boring and we attracted the wrong people LOL. This guys were thinking that we are luring them, dream on baby!
Hmmm I forgot what I wanted to say...... So I might be going out today, most probably to Play cos it plays really good much and I can move to it.
Well I would wanna finish up my house chores before going clubbing or whatever, I need to:-
1. Grocery shopping
2. Do the laundry
3. Change my towels and bedsheets
4. Change the thing in my cupboard, dehumidifier I think
5. Return back my friend's books to her
I guess it is not a tough job, the worst one I'd probably do it next week which is clearing up my room. It looks like a warzone and everything is everywhere.
159 days
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