Hae!?

I finished my exams and am packing my bags, gonna fly to Kuala Lumpur in a few hours time :)

Exams was ok I guess, I hope for the best.

Went to children's home after lunch and it was so touching, I like children cos I have a soft spot for them. I am gonna volunteer in this house after coming back.

Kuala Lumpur, here I come!

Who's in KL?

Exams, Holiday

I am having my mid semester exams now and I am online blogging and doing whatever in facebook except studying.

It's 1.10 am in the morning, argh internet is ruling my life.

I can't wait for Saturday! I will be flying off to Kuala Lumpur for awhile, then off to home sweet home in Penang :)

What should I do in Kuala Lumpur? Where should I go? Will I meet someone? Who knows?

I will be taking this paper called Distribution Center Management, I know yawnnnn but it is part of my module. I have been staring at the same page for ages, totally boring kinda stuff and worst of all it's an online subject but it's an exam based subject. Triple killer, number 1 I could not rebothered to do my lecture online and number 2 when I do not attend lectures and do the tutorials I did not learn anything! Number 3! It's an exam based subject.

I will be spending Christmas at home, can't wait for the holidays. I wanna see all my family and friends, I miss them so much.

Will be flying back to Singapore on the 28th early in the morning..... See ya!

I Need Answers

How do you know when you like someone?

Love kind of like but too early to be love and not some stupid crush.

And how do you know if that someone feels the same?

Foolish

I should have went

I thought there wasn't anything when you stopped writing

I am foolish

I should have followed my heart

I would rewind time if I knew you were waiting for me and expecting to see me there

Replacement

Sometimes I feel lonely over here, although I have friends but nothing beats family and close ol' friends.

There is this feeling that I miss the most, the homely feeling. But I have always had a solution, when I miss home so much, I'll just go to Ikea, it has so many things that makes me feel so connected, cos it focuses on home design and blah blah. I could just spend the whole day in Ikea, end up buying stuff I don't need BUT still feel happy.

I am not promoting Ikea but I just like Ikea.

I love the food there, it's kinda nice.

So today my classmates and I decided to go to Ikea for lunch, after lunch and all the talking we sort of raided Ikea, pretended like we are a family and we were trying out bedrooms and all those stuff.

I bought some stuff and chocolates, I wanted to buy the fish roe cream and crab cream or whatever it's called but I had to many bags to carry so I did not buy. I just ate the chocolates, it is great but I think I ate too much, this is what happens when I have chocolate, I will just eat it non stop cos my love for chocolate is quite strong ..

Thank godness I live quite near Ikea :)

Maniacs

There are many reasons why I can't stand most males.

Chauvinists- This is self explanatory

Horny tarts, they do not even know my name or where I live or any other information, they started asking for sex and say they would like to give me pleasure. Do you even know what pleasure means to me? The answer is definitely not sex, I am not some typical horny ass male or homo.

One track mind/inflexible, totally can't stand it. Always thinking that the world is flat and not round........

Strong sense of competition, NOT everything is a competition! It is ok to loose or to be wrong at times, you are after all, human. If you loose or know that you are wrong, it is MANLY to apologize if you are wrong and congratulate the winner, not throwing tantrum like a little boy. Having that "thingy" dangling down there does not mean you have a gold medal hanging around your neck.

HUGE ego, can't stand it at all! I am not gonna stroke your ego everyday or every other day AND not gonna inflate it. Am also not gonna belittle myself to make you feel good. Insulting the other gender or other people is not gonna make u more superior, it makes you a loser!

Any stuff to add? Leave it in the comments section :)

Winner Loser

So I met this guy with a friend. I totally knew it that this guy would like my friend more cos he is the typical gay guy in Asia, slim, young, short, hairless and etc. I am neither, except being a little on the short side and maybe young.

As usual I have no expectations, I just talked to this guy, seems like that guy and I talked a lot. But I knew that he was more interested in my friend. The way he looks at him and stuff, whatever...

So I told my friend, I bet he likes you a lot and he wants to date you and my friend told me yes. So I won a bet, but nothing and this guy was clearly not interested in my, I am not surprised....

2nd, another friend told me to add these 2 guys on facebook, so I told her that I bet they would accept me, at least one of them, cos I think of of the guys are hot but the one which I think is not hot added me, but I still won the bet. So bet 2, won.

Well I guess if I would like to stay in Asia and be in the gay world at the same time, I have to be slim and hairless aka smooth. I am neither so I am loosing out, sad huh? Well whatever, if it's gonna be that shallow, I am not gonna change it and I am not gonna change me.

Stereotypical life this world has. Whatever, world......

Random Crap

Ok I think I am a person with bad thoughts.

I would make a good terrorist, if terrorism = bitching.

When I am having a violent persona on, I like to think of fire, I wanna burn my housemates! But of course I would never do those things.

Why am I writing this?

Well I am hyper at night, so that's why I think of these things.

I am afraid of fire.

I have thought of snipping this girls' hair off, maybe the fact that she hates me for no reason, she has not even spoken to me. She is just this witch girl. Recently she dyed her hair black, OMG witch-o-pedia.

Bitch gone now. POOF!

Blah

Leave some comments on my posts!

I'm not gonna write you a love song

Found

So my friends were in Singapore last weekend. They had to freshen up and deposit their bags. As they were doing whatever they were doing, I needed to grab a bottle of water, but after buying, I walked about the mall. I found this:






I had to have it, so I bought it instantly. It's from Vans and I am in love with it, but I wore it only once.

Visitors

Some friends visited from Malaysia. We had to squeeze all of the plans in a very limited time.

Dramas are included, especially in Changi Airport where 2 of them were drooling on the stewards and stewardesses.

I was late at picking them up cos I thought they would reach later but luckily I manage to wake up and gave them a call, early in the morning.




We had less than 24 hours, but it was great...

Abrazame, por favor

Besame mucho, como si fuera esta noche la ultima vez, que tengo miedo a pederte.

Quiero tenerte muy cerca, mirarme en tus ojos, verte junto a mi....




Estoy esperando por ti

New Fav

I have a new favourite show, yes I do watch tv. It's Gossip Girl, who does not like it? It's so scandalous, feels a little bit like me but less erm hmmm I can't think what is less. Well all I know is that I did not kill anyone...

Anyways I like this character in this show. He's Chuck Bass, he turns me on, I mean like truely. He is so insultingly seductive. He is cold and all those bad boyfriend kind of guy but I think he is very attractive, I mean his character.

And this is my one of my favourite song of the whole show.

xoxo

French Fate

So I was at a birthday party of a friend of mine, of which I have a crush on and we met in the bar a lot of months ago before my ex left me.

I do not know anyone there, I swear, except for the birthday boy.

I met some new people and stuff and it was nice, it was not a gay party tho but there but several over there.

So over the past week a friend of mine was asking me bout this French teacher in our school, if that teacher was gay cos I am very close to the French educators in my school, so when he mentioned the name I did not know cos the teacher was new, ok let's give this teacher a name, say N.

Anyways, I met N in the birthday partay. Through a guy which I randomly talked too who I have always thought he was hot and I have seen him a million times. Anyways N was there and I was told that he teaches in my school and stuff. So I confronted N, well I am sort of in luck, he is the French teacher, and I have seen him before too, a million times in the bar which I go to.

Coincident? I don't think so, Singapore is tiny, the gay community is tinier, once you're out there, people will know, so newbies, beware of what you do when stepping into the scene, there is no way out!

Virgins

So like 2 weeks ago, in the 1st week of school my classmates and I decided to go to a club. Like most of them are clubbing virgins, sadness right? But they recently turned 18 or something (Don't ask me how old am I) so it's time to loosen up and get wild. So we decided to go to a club which I have not been to, and I know why I have not been there, cos it's kinda lame, only when I am so tired they started playing all my songs and I was like f it....

It was great, we ended up with 2 or 3 drunks, all of them were guys. Oh yeah, there were 4 guys and 4 girls.... I wasn't drunk :)

So it was great and stuff and we danced and the guys were sitting at 1 corner and stuff, I was dancing as usual, that is why I go to clubs!

Oh! The alcohol in this club is REALLY cheap, it's like 200%-300% cheaper than the place that I always go to. The name of this club is called dbl O.

While in the club, E called me, we spoke bout so many things......

So after clubbing, we went to Mc Doodles, I mean Donald's.... The drunks almost picked a fight with a bitch from another club cos well she was pretty darn bitchy but I was buying stuff so I could not see the drama.....

All in all, some of us were traumatised, bored to death, having body aches from obsessive dancing, molested, etc. I would say it was an eventful night.

So back to Tabs, Play or AttiQa this Friday and Sturday, if I have the mood..........

Back To Schol, 3 Weeks Ago

So school started like ages ago and I am a little busy to write something in here cos I have been watching the reruns of Project Runway Season cos Christian Siriano makes me laugh and he is cute. Well the season has lots of hotties too. Ok anyways....

So school started, new subjects, new lecturers, new tutors but same ol' bitches....

Well I was in the lab for my tutorials, apparently it is an e-learning subject but we have 2 hours compulsory in the lab... Boring. To get like participation marks, we need to write some stuff in the forum regarding the week's online lecture or answer or both. I was so tired and irritated by the teacher cos no one could ever understand a word he says, he's speaking in an excessive amount of Singlish and pronouncation was "fabulous".... So I talked to my classmate bout writing a question and I just said out loud, why don't I post a question asking "Who is the biggest bitch in our class?" It would be so cool. Guess what their answer was? You so don't wanna know....

So another thing, I have found my replacement for Barney. Now I see him twice every week. He is my tutor and he is nice and I like his way of teaching.

I felt insulted last week, very by my management and financial accounting(MAF) (Ugh I'm gonna go crazy of barfness) lecturer/tutor. I spoke to her and stuff and she asked me, "Are you a foreigner?" (Well in my way of interpreting it) I said yeah and she continued by asking, "Where are you from?" So I said Penang, Malaysia. Guess what question came next? She asked "Do you understand my lessons? Cos it's in English. Do you understand English?" I was stunned at that particular moment, so my answer was just yes it is not a problem for me. Then I walked out like a zombie. I was shocked so that was why my answer was brief. I told it to my classmates and they were like laughing. I should have just said to her, "So what have I been speaking all this while?" She is the 1st person who asked me that question, I am insulted...... Which reminds me, I have MAF tomorrow, ugh.

What else happened? Oh, drunk bitches!

No Stranger

I was in Queensbay Mall today to meet some friends. It was nice meeting them as I have not met one of them for a long time and we click really well, like duh!

I was thirsty, so I needed a bottle or water. We went to the basement to get my bottle of water. I was furious cos the line is so long, I was like thinking why don't I walk pass the cashier and just put my money there, they can keep the change....

As I was lining up at the express counter, some fella had to push his cart pass my path and I was like ok..... Guess who cos behind the shopping cart pushing guy? I have never ever thought bout it but it was E!

Well I did not notice him cos I was like looking at my shoes or somewhere but something caught my attention cos I can feel this guy is walking towards me. E was like smiling and saying hi, I am shocked.

Why would E be in Penang? Well it clears everything cos it's the holidays and guess what? He came back to get some songs, I'm like yeah rite..... Lame excuse.

I dunno he gives me this vibes that he looks very happy to see me and stuff and we talked and I dunno..... I did not yearn for him or even think bout him but I was curious... I checked out and my friends were telling me, that guy is so into you, I was like whatever, I know him already and I know what he did. Maybe it was just to make me jealous? Cos he called and explain stuff.... Ish!

So anyways at this time he is already on the way back to Singapore.... Oh he took his key so I am not suppose to take it anymore and erm he is taking the bus so I would guess that he is halfway there...

His last sentence to me was, please call me when you get back to Singapore........

I am so curious that when I was on the escalator, I kept on staring at him.

What is happening?

New Character

I have a new character now, he is J.

How do I describe him? Hmmmm

Well he is nice and good and British-crazy guy

Just in case you are wondering, no we are not dating, we are friends, non sexual and close friends :)

Anymore information?

A Lovely Celebration

It's Hari Raya today :)

I like all these festivals cos I know I will get something out of it (Kidding!). Well I love it cos I get to see kids playing around and we get to eat nice food and wear nice clothes or see people wear nice clothes, blah blah blah blah!

Ok anyways today is Hari Raya! I am so excited, I dunno why but I have nothing to write, mainly cos I am kinda sad too.....

I followed my parents to visit their friends for Hari Raya, I was sad cos as I was on the way there, I saw houses submerged in water. It is Hari Raya, give people a chance to celebrate. When I saw the sad faces of the people in the house, I feel sad and down.

My family being typical, started to talk bout how great it is to see all races living in harmony with their friends, which by this time probably bores me cos I talk bout it almost everyday..... But 1 thing is true, all of us agree that we can live in harmony, if people can't, force them to cross breed! Ha! Easy as that, then they WILL have to accept and live with it.....

Anyways things aside, it's 1st of Syawal, which means it's the new year for the Muslim calender, before that was Ramadhan, the fasting month where everyone fast from dawn till dusk and abstain from any sinful activities, which means not being naughty, kinda hard isn't it? Well maybe for me, heh....

I have a feeling that this year, everyone is wearing purple, last year was green or something. I love the attires that everyone is in, baju melayu, baju kurung, baju kebaya, etc. They look so nice, I just want to steal it (Evil thoughts!) It makes me happy and proud that we have this culture, it's lovely, lively and happy.

Go out, try a new culture today

Scandal-us 18SX

Ok if you can't take gay stuff or scandals or too critical bout this, DON'T read this post, it might just not be your thing.

Ok well I wanted to write this a very long time ago, it happened before I flew home, Penang.

Did I mention anything bout having a crush or more like lusting bout a particular guy from Penang who is now in Singapore? Ok whatever

Well ok I followed a couple of friends to a market called Pasar Ramadan cos they wanted to shop AND break fast over there. So while I was there I got to know this guy. He is so cute and hot and sense a liking towards him. Anyways! I spoke to him and he told me he is from Penang! I was like I am from Penang too! He said really? I thought you're from Vietnam or somewhere (ARGH!) So I said yeah and we started talking. He was very touchy, VERY! And guess what? I am turned on, normally I will get disguisted....

So after all the walking and stuff, he wanted to go to this club. I was so tired but I said I will meet him there. I was there and they had some show, drag queen shit and I was finding for him. There was this hot guy totally looking at me and if at any other time I would just go over and say hi but this time I was busy searching for the Penang guy, E. So I kept on searching for E and shit and was already pissed!

The music started, me with no alcohol, nobody to dance with just danced and then I saw him, flirting with some quite old looking guy! I was pissed, I walked over and touched him and he saw me and he smiled and we talked, he pushed his friend aside.

After talking we danced but he was dancing with this guy ok let's name this guy John..... He was dancing with John! And stuff, I dunno if he was trying to make me jealous. Then E's friend came, I forgot his name, he winked at me but I was too say disappointed in E to acknowledge anything. E walked away with John. E's friend followed, by that time I was too into dancing my disappointment out.

E's friend came back to me, he is hot but not my type. We danced and he got closer and closer and CLOSER. He was holding me, touching me all over. He tried to put his hands into my pants, that time I stopped him and whipered to him, no way it's gonna happen. He took it and he started kissing me, E saw it.

I kissed E's friend and I can see E was jealous, it's working. Ok let's give E's friend a name, say Pirate. So Pirate was totally enjoying the kiss while I was just dreading to kiss.... He tasted like beer and ashtray... Pfui!

So yeah we kissed like crazy and he was violent! He bit me and was like whispering sexual words to me, I was just over there dancing and pretending to be enjoying it while making E jealous. So I was too bored of Pirate and I went to the toilet to check if Pirate left any marks on my neck or stuff, none....Good

So when I went back, I got myself a shot of vodka and tequila, no effect, must be single shot this time. So I went back to the dance floor and E was dancing with John, useless! But he grabbed my hand and my crotch.... So typical... Anyways we danced with John and E was so totally slutting with John, and E came over to me and whispered, don't stare into the lights, they might blind you. I said thanks... I went to the side and they went to the side. So there was this song playing, something bout something and this sentence came to my mind, dance the sadness away. I closed my eyes and danced like there's no tomorrow....

Then I was bored cos at this time the crowd is leaving and only lovers or people who had found their shags leave behind. Pirate was still there.... Oh before that I was dancing on stage, everyone was looking and winking and smiling at me... I know I could be a whore sometimes... But Jason Lucas was there, ARGH that show off guy! Well Jason Lucas... It's a long story.......

So where was I? Oh yeah! Erm I walked to the back portion of the dance floor where there is much more space... I saw a guy which I know, I said hi.... He was like, so late? I told him, you're late, I have been here since 0030... He was flirting with this guy... I dun care, I danced and then Farouk camed, OMG we were so happy and we hugged and said hi and stuff and we danced a little, some of our friends, sorta came. We were crossed at me cos I was not at the bar before going to the club, well I did not tell them my agenda so I just said I came late and thought I should just go to the club....

So I danced a little and I left, I searched for E but I found Pirate and he kissed me and shit and he told me he has a partner, I was thinking great! And guess who's the partner? THE DRAG QUEEN who performed that night, the drag queen seriously did the operation for the boobs. I was like ok....

I do not know how many times Pirate kissed me or tried to... E was obviously jealous cos he wants to go home with Pirate as he does not have a place to stay. E is staying in a hostel....

So anyways!!! When I left, E looked so sad, and he said are you sure you wanna leave, I said yeah, what's left to stay? He was saying do you not wanna stay any longer? Well I said I am kind of tired and I wanna go home, you enjoy yourself with that guy and he was like, do you wanna go with me later? Haha I am so over it by then I just say, nah you enjoy yourself, I came searching for you but you were busy so I am bored of games. His eyes teary, I walked away....

The next morning or rather afternoon he smsed saying he did not follow pirate home and he stayed in the cyber cafe until he is able to enter his hostel. I asked why, he said Pirate was sad and drunk. Well I think I know why, before I left Pirate told me that he would like to go home with me, well obviously I did not for 2 reasons, he is not my type and he stays with his mom!

So I smiled to myself and went for lunch, E was depressed cos he told me that I did not follow him and he wanted me to accompany him, well too bad darling, maybe next time when I do not have to play games with you......

So after that he called..... The following day I left with E wanting me to do something for him in Penang, get his luguage keys cos he can't open the lock on his bag without the keys.... Well I am gonna take the key for him but I ain't no delivery boy, I am just doing a favour.....

John who was so clearly horny got dumped or maybe E gave him a blowjob in the restroom, who cares? Pirate was just put into a taxi and sent home, what a dramatic night......

I might have missed out some details cos I am too tired to type out everything, any questions, just write in, I'll reply....

ISH!

Some bitch stole my newly ordered t shirts from threadless, this is the 2nd time! Whoever who stole it from my letter box or mailbox, give it back! Go get your own threadless t shirts!

They Left

Most of my close or good friends are now away from the country, they are mostly not within the radius of 4 hours by flight. It is depressing. I left 1st cos she left like so damn fast, then erm N left, then G then S then F, did I forget to mention anyone? I dunno they left and now it seems so boring and empty over here.

It is not fair :(

S leaving such a surprise. He did not tell me, only the day before he's bout to fly. What a friend right?

This is a rant

Salzburg, Austria

On the way to city centre
The garden, it's kinda cute
Salzburg Central Station
The Church in the city, I don't remember the name
The house which Mozart was born in
A view from the castle on the mountains
This wood painting is just cute so I have to put it here

Travel Plans?

Well it is unconfirmed, but I have booked some tickets, sort some things up.

Sorry to those whom I told that I will be going back to Europe, it is not happening at least in March/April cos I found more interesting places to visit AND not to mention challenging.... Oh it's a backpacking trip!! So excited.

I am going to Kuala Lumpur, Vientiane, Hanoi, Ho Chin Minh, Bangkok and another Thai city, I dunno yet, I would love to go to the beach....

I am really really looking forward to this trip cos I always wanted to visit those places!!!

I will be gone from erm late March till 18th April I think.

I have not booked a return flight, BUT I have booked the flight to Vientiane, cos that's the city that I am most excited bout!

I planned everything by myself and I think I might be travelling alone, who cares? Right? BUT I'd love to have someone to follow me.....

Uh Raya is near :) I can so feel it

Class Chalet?

Before leaving Singapore, I had a class chalet, you little twerps!

I am angry! So freaking angry. You (classmates) dare to say that I drank so freaking much and asked if I was ok? Excuse mehhh??? I drank one of the most and I was sober, I cleaned up all of your vomits. Have to deal with bloody drunks AND have to wear your clothes for u guys cos the girls were freaking out seeing you baboons running around naked or semi naked, crawling around like insects and hugging every single thing.

A friendly advice: If you can't drink, don't!!!! Don't go say that I drank the vodka and 5 cans of beer and chase after me for finishing the alco, cos I know I can drink and I control myself and I did not want more drunk people in the chalet. Red does not equals to drunk. Fuck! Ooops did I just say fuck? Who cares???

Uhh while those turds were being drunk, me and the girls went to McDonalds, I had this mud pie thingy, OMG it's greater than great at that time, chocolate orgasm....

I wanted to bash those people up, I'm a drunk basher! Argh!!! Cleaning up a drunk's puke is smellier than changing baby's diapers! Shi Wei u owe me one! Nicholas as well, I saved your relationship with that girl, whoever it is! Jarrold! Jashawn! U drunk asses!!! Argh

I left in dawn cos I could not stand it anymore, I cleaned the house and vomit, make tea, bring food and shit so I am fucking off before the sun rises and I could see u guys having this after I-am-so-fucking-drunk state.

Rant over, bitches! See u in next semester when u guys are more sober.

Driving School!

Ok I have been postponing my driving lesson for like almost 2 years cos I do not like driving in Penang AND I was hoping for good public transport (like it's gonna be THAT soon!)

Driving school is bad well but I think it's ok except for the on the road thingy, it's not nice when you have a ass bitching instructor who thinks he is so darn smart. One morn he came like 30 mins early and I told him I just woke up, he nagged like some whatever...... I'm like WTF you said 10.30 and guess what he told me? Even aeroplanes can have delays, I said I know and he was like u know and blah blah blah, then I told him aeroplanes are part of my studies as well and he was like now you're so smart eh? I just shut up cos I am not in the mood to quarrel with my instructor. I'm like what does aeroplanes being delayed have to do with you coming early? And yesterday you were late and u screamed and me just because I asked where u were as I waited for you in some forest aka Bukit Minyak for almost 45 mins! Sucha mother freaker.....

I had my 1st accident! And it was not my fault, how can you overtake me at A junction AND that freaker did not stop! Ha! So it was not my fault and my instructor told me.

So I am doing some intensive thingy cos I am gonna leave Penang in a few weeks time. But I have break for a few days which means I do not have to see him..... I am wondering, should I complain? Better not, this is Penang, that freaker is gonna get back to me if I complained, I already complained that he was late and he humiliate me in public! Luckily I was in a good mood or else he would kiss his soul good bye and I mean it!

Did I say that he told me he is or was English-educated? He said once that I know you're from a Chinese school and you might not know this in English..... My mind was like OH MY FREAKING GOD you did not just say that biatch! He refuse to speak to me in English and he mixes A LOT he speaks the Penang dialect which is fine by me and he was like saying don't you go to school and shit? I am like I do I am just having holidays. What's up with him??? Jealous or something? I spoke English to him and he refuses to speak English to me, so I am wondering if HE could speak proper English. I am not from some racist breeding vernacular school k, kiss my steering wheel.....

PS: I did come out with this statement that vernacular school breeds racism BUT all vernacular school students whom I know agress with moi so shut the freak up just in case....

Back Home

I have been back home for like say 2 weeks, have been having driving school, sent a friend off and tomorrow another friend is leaving, everyone is so smart that they are going overseas to study :( Which is actually a good thing!

Being home is great so far I guess..... I turned 20 and guess what? My family forgot bout it... So typical, even my friends remember it. The verdict? We had lunch and my parents and I went to Queensbay Mall and we waiting for this darn bus for like almost 3 hours just to go home. My dad can't drive cos he just got his eye operation.....

Went out a little and stuff, I dunno what to say but I have other stories....

Scary Berry

Ok seriously, I have been keeping track and reading lots and really lots of stuff about North Korea. I read and watch videos and stuff about them. If I could, I'll wanna safe all the North Koreans out of that Prison Country(as I call it)

Life is horrible there and you're practically nothing, life is worthless. Doesn't Kim Jong-il feel for the people? Why can't someone just assassinate him?

I've watch a video footage of North Koreans who ran away from their country to seek asylum, some were lucky and some weren't very lucky. I was wonder why does China not accept those asylum seekers. Do you think that they would be happy fleeing the country that they were born in? I don't think so. Everyone loves their home country somehow or the other, it's just that due to some shitty circumstances, they had to flee for their own and family's well being.

I'd really hope that China would open up. I mean they have already like more than a billion people, why not just let those North Koreans seek asylum by sending them to other countries(and I don't mean back to North Korea)?

Just the sight of North Korea's flag gives me the shivers.......

Someone ought to change this, it feels like it's worst than the Nazi period in Germany......

What is happening to this world?

Results!

I got my exam results today, well I had my exams like 3 weeks ago and I was dead sick! I had asthma, flu and fever, so I was like hoping for the worst but actually, I did quite good. I am shocked myself :) Well was not expecting results to be out today. I woke up at like 15:45 and I saw my mobile, there is was a text from an unknown number saying exam results for 070....I

I am still wondering if I should post my exam results.... Well what the hell!

Logistics and Supply Chain Management: A
Management Science: B
Operations Management: C+
Purchasing Principles and Practices: B
Design in Culture: D (The tutor is one hell of a bitch, seriously he is and he is sorta blind too cos he did not look at the small details properly!)

So well I was happy cos I got a better grade than what I got for my coursework, which means I did well for my papers! Which is shocking cos I am not the kind of person who are able to memorize stuff. Well for my coursework before exams were:

Logistics and Supply Chain Management: A
Management Science: B+
Operations Management: D+
Purchasing Principles and Practices: C+

It's an improvement :)

Who knew a person who rarely studied and not to mention extremely sick did well for his papers. I guess maybe I was paranoid and I wanted to go home to visit my family made me study say maybe 3 hours which, obviously helped :)

I am so relieved. I'll be having a class chalet tomorrow. Kinda looking forward to it.

Toodles

From Asia to Europe

Changi Beach, Singapore


Fountain of Wealth, Singapore


Danube River, Salzburg, Austria


Hannover Central Station, Hannover, Germany


Disclaimer:
All photos in my blog are taken by me, I am not a professional photographer so take it or leave it.

Quotes

It only takes a second to say "I love you" but a lifetime to show it

l'amour est peut être la phase plus difficile dans la vie (Love is perhaps the most difficult part of life)

Sexual attraction is cheap, commonplace and it doesn't last

Friends come and go but good friends stay with you forever

Can't Wait

If there is one show that I can't wait to see in the cinemas is Mamma Mia! I love the trailer so much and the singing thingy, it amazes me and I can't stop singing those ABBA songs now, addicted to them.

My favourite songs so far in this movie are Lay All Your Love On Me. Here's the Mamma Mia version and Gimme! Gimme! Gimme! and also! Winner Takes It All

Movie Review: Wall E

Well I went to a last minute movie thingy and I decided to watch Wall E with my friend. It was ok. I like Eve a lot, so my kind of robot.

Wall E is a robot that is created to clear up the mass that is left on Earth while most of the humans are in a spaceship in another galaxy.... Humans got so obese that they would not even get up by themselves. So Eve was sent to Earth to search some life thingy or some key and Wall E fell in love with her.

I would give it an OK, not that spectacular but it gives you something to think about cos the Earth is like sort of dying now, maybe in future we'd be like that. Maybe there's a hidden message like save the Earth or something.

You could watch it if you want to but I'll just say go watch it cos it's cute, funny and also touching. So get your movie tickets now!

Movie Review: Money Not Enough 2

This is a local Singaporean production. I think this movie is really good as it shows the current issues that people are facing in Singapore and to some in Malaysia...

It was suppose to be a funny film or something, I think I have watched the 1st episode but I am unsure if I did or if I could recall it.

It is in Chinese and also a Chinese dialect called Hokkien, which is spoken in several parts of Malaysia, Singapore, Taiwan and Indonesia. But it varies as Singaporean Hokkien is different from the Hokkien in Penang and stuff....

This movie is bout 3 brothers rushing to get rich and at the end they fall to their low and realises that what is really important to them. Meanwhile their mother are sort of getting a little bit senile or perhaps just testing them but how much they love her. It is really sad and I cried, like cried cried and I dun normally cry in films, this is the 3rd movie that actually made me cry so yeah.

Here's the trailer
Not really a good trailer but trust me, the show is touching

A quote from the song about the mother:

You dotted their lives and you love them unconditionally but look where are you lying now? You seem to be unimportant to them and you treated you like trash (not 100% accurate but I tried my best)

What is our society going into? I guess it is really all about the money.

Mr K aka my ex told me once, his goals is to collect as much money as possible cos he wants to live the high life....... Well you know what? Money isn't gonna remember you or appreciate you, loved ones are.

Happy 51st Birthday!!!

31st August is my country's national day. We are 51 years old this year!!!! Wohooo....


Well I have a resolution!!! Or rather resolutions!!

Nombor 1: Stop racism! Like serious shit stop it.....

Nombor 2: Less corruption, like this is also serious, stop it

Nombor 3: GOOD public transport, we spent billions of dollars and public transport is still shitty, like seriously

Nombor 4: People mixing around with other ethnicity

Nombor 5: Stop faulting each other for bad hmmm what's pentadbiran in English? OMG I am thinking in French, Malay and English now, so confused..... Stop faulting the leadership of the Prime Minister, he is trying the best he can! You guys are just opportunists!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED COUNTRY!!!!

Exams and Sickness

I just had my semester exams and the worst thing bout it was I was dead ill, like serious. I had asthma, flu and fever all at the same time. I was so sick, I could not sleep and I could not concentrate. I was so ill that when my care person called, he thought that I was dying, well I felt like it.

I just hope that I pass all of my papers, and the funny thing is, the paper which was suppose to be easy for me turned out to be the hardest cos it needs lots of concentration and calculation. I missed out so many points! I was so careless, I hope I pass.

Anyways I am better now, still a little cough but yeah.

Trips For My Holidays!

Ok so I have sorted out, booking tickets for all of my holidays, this holiday and also the coming holiday~!!!

This holiday (Sept/Oct 08) Penang- Have to do my driver's license and spend time with family so they are 1st

Next holiday (March/April 09) Malaysia, Vietnam, Thailand, Laos- Always wanted to see South-East Asia and I guess myself I do it now. I would love to have travel mates. It would be great

All the other short holidays I am not gonna go anywhere maybe just a short trip to somewhere.....

I am so looking forward to all of my trips!!! See u guys, besos

Photos To Lighten Up

Prague/Praha



Inside a glass thing, top of the Parliament of Germany, I'm in the picture, somewhere

Too dead to upload more, it takes too long

Worry Blurry

All the things that are happening lately are gonna kill me, sooner or later if it does not stop. I am already down with flu or fever since friday and today it got worst, I am insomniac now. I went to sleep at like 11pm and I woke up at 12.20pm. I can't get enough sleep during the day cos children are playing and screaming and when I manage to get enough sleep it's already at night.

I feel so uncomfortable and cold and warm, cold and warm, cold and warm. I am having my exams tomorrow and I really need to do this papers like properly cos I need it, it's a redemption from last year's not so good results. although I manage to pass everything but I am not sure if I have enough points to do my degree.

I think I might be having asthma or something, my chest feels tight, should I take my tablets now? I am not gasping for air.

I have been eating healthily well at least not the pass few days but in general I do. Is it because of the alcohol? It could not be......

I think I need like some getaway or something like a relaxing one. Should I? I am sorta saving for my Asian and Europe trip thingy.... but I guess I could always take up a part time job when I am healthy.

I try to stay in bed and stuff but it is like I keep on moving and I wanna get out of bed if I am not sleep cos I feel very uncomfortable when I am ill. I simply can;t stay still.

You know, Mr Nash aka my ex wrote to me and all those stuff, it is adding to my stress, already I am trying to forget him but then came e-mails and a sms. Damn technology.....

Drunk Post

Hey guys, I just came back from a party and I am drunk, well sorta cos I had vodka, rum and blah blah blah. I am pretty drunk but still normal. I had my 1st cigarette in ages! OMG it taste like heaven...... Well I am not a smoker but I do miss it to some point....

OK Imma go to bed now, sorry for being drunk I love the world. Peace to all

Me being drunk, sorta

Reggeaton

There is no other music that I could relate to than this genre of music, it makes me feel so somehow belonged and not to mention it makes me wanna shake it. I mean when I started listening to reggeaton I was like it was kinda crappy until I was staying in Germany then I found the meaning of reggeaton while you are having a fiesta, yeah I have a lot of Latin friends in Germany, we relate to each other, the Asians never liked me cos I was not pure AND I don't speak German with an Asian accent but some other accent.... Weird right?

Ok anyways, there is no one who can create music in this genre better than Daddy Yankee, I love his work so much, almost every of his song I fell in love with it and when they play it or any reggeaton songs in the clubs I would be the hardest shaker, LOL.

The other artist that I also like is Kat DeLuna, especially her Spanish version of Run The Show, it is so like WOW, I love it cos it's muy mucho caliente.

So here is a sample of what reggeaton sounds like, kinda old school but it's still fresh, I remember when it 1st came out, it was the hottest thing ever. If you wanna hear something newer, click here or here

The Latino pride in me.....

Trauriges Maedchen

I have a new favourite song, it is trauriges maedchen , meaning sad girl in German.

If you need me to translate any part of it or the song, you can request it in the comment section and I will try my best to translate it ASAP. So have a listen to it 1st.

The song is from Sven Van Thom and it is new, the video just came out last week or something if I am not wrong.

Listen to it here

Schoenen abend noch!

You're So Lame

Last friday, me and my classmate sorta disturbed each other and we sorta got into a quarrel, I got irritated so I pulled his sweater and he was like, dude, it's Adidas you know, I'm like it JUST Adidas, don't be a pussy. I'm wearing Zara and FCUK, so WTF.....

And one day I wore G-Star RAW to sch and people was like saying wot brand is tht and why we have not seen it? I'm like DOH cos there is only 1 shop in Singapore that sells it?

They are so brand conscious yet they do not know much bout brands, go read some fashion magazines..... tsk tsk tsk, don't compete with me cos u will not win.

I am not brand conscious, I just happen to have those brands and I wear em.

I bought something from Adidas today so that's why it reminded me of this thing.....

Drawings

Have u ever had a bright colour pillowcase and one day u see it, it has like pencil drawings all over it? It just happened to mine. I found the culprit: Eyeliner. Yes I do draw my eyes sometimes for the fun of it but I am not sissy k, imma kick your ass if u pick a fight with moi. Hehe

Anyways loadsa guys are using it these days so no biggie if I use it too, ight?

Rants and More Rants

I had gastric/food poisoning last week and I felt that I was dying. I do not know what I ate, I had like Swensen's, grilled chicken, pasta and McDo(again!) the day before, what could possibly go wrong? Maybe! maybe the lady missed out my salad in my grilled chicken! Nah I dun think so, anyways I am feeling better now and I just had some German food! Wohoo, it tasted a little bit different but yeah when ure so far away this is the best you can get.

I was in Kuala Lumpur, capital of my home-country, Malaysia during the weekends. It was cool, I had an event and I got a flu before leaving for Kuala Lumpur :( Guess who I met? Guess who I met? The girl which sat beside moi on the plane back from Germany!!! We were screaming and jumping around and hugging each other so tight, I could so feel her boobies.... and she is so tall and I am quite a short person so I was like stretching out my neck, yeah yeah it was so nice and we spent some time and stuff, I did not get to meet my Belgian friends which I promised I would go shake some ass with cos I was so tired and not to mention down with flu and there weren't taxi around the hotel! Talking bout being a 5 star hotel....... HUMPH! I got home early and I slept at like 3am.....

On the way back my throat was itching and my pants was bursting cos I saw this 3 really hot guys I wanted to talk to them but I was like sneezing and coughing and blowing my nose, I was like fuck it! *cheeky*

Argh my house mates are killing me! Those bitches! And the untamed children! Screaming and throwing things, since when this house turned into a whore-house huh? You guys are just sheltering here cos you are fucking around with other guys while your husband is waiting for u at home! Now go home with your children before I detonate one of them! I need sleeeeeep! Imagine the children screaming at 11am in the morning? OMG it is my sleeping time, people have night life y'know and my classes don't start until like 12 and I wanna have some beauty sleep. OMG they just came back, I am heard the song Tragedy playing in my head....... Can someone please clean the toilet?

I found my old phone and I feel happier using it cos it has a German in it and it is easier for me to type my smses.... The new phone has only English and South-East Asian languages in it so yeah not so my kinda thing unless I am writing in Malay or English. Why am I ranting?

Oh I was broke last month! OMG I had to survive on just 100 dollars for a week! or maybe 4 or 5 days but still!!! I felt so depressed and not to mention I STILL have not received my card, oh I am not taking back a visa card cos I felt it was bad so now I am taking a MasterCard. I think I will be getting it next week, now I am just using my backup Visa card which I leave it at home cos I only use that card for online purchases.... I am NOT a spoilt brat, I live my the allowance that my parents gimme ok and I know the word called saving and being economical.....

Have you tried mixing chocolate chip cookies, vanilla ice cream, strawberry sauce and M&Ms together? OMG they are so sweet you will be hyper the whole night, I mixed the whole thing and ate it all and I was sort of insane for the whole night and I did not sleep..

Tak Kenal Maka Tak Suka

You know I have given this thing into much thought. If you are a Malaysia or have stayed for a long time in Malaysia you would know what is a vernacular school.

My definition of vernacular school: A school that breeds racism.

Why did I say that? Hmmm well look at the situation Malaysia is in now. It's horrible!!!! It's because racism is such a strong thing in the country! Imagine, there are Malays, Chinese and Indians people yeah living in a place, say half of them are going to a normal school and half are going to vernacular school. The ones in normal school will integrate and learn about the other ethnicity's culture and find out how wonderful and colourful it is and would become good friends or at least have friends of different ethnicity. Now, people in vernacular school, hmmm where do I start? Ok say an Indian boy, he grew up in an Indian community and speaks Tamil, he goes to vernacular school and he continues to speak Tamil and stuff and only see Indian people in his school, he would not integrate into the society right?

So my examples were lame but you get my point now? It starts from young! Imagine sending a 3 year old kid to kindergarten with just people of his own ethnicity, he will NOT integrate! And end up going to a vernacular school and stuff, when he is out of school, he would die cos he will not be able to integrate!

The national language for Malaysia is Malay and our 2nd language of command is English but for vernacular schools it's different, for Indian vernacular schools, their language of command is Tamil, Malay is either Malay or Arabic and Chinese it's of course Mandarin...... So you see the point? Dump everyone in one bloody normal mainstream school and let them mix! Mix like those mixed vegetables! Gang bang if you guys have too (Whoops explicit material here)

So what I am trying to say is, when you are living in a multi-ethnicity country, you need to integrate! Even if you're not in the main races! You know what? Us mixed race people are the best cos we are mixed so we mix around with other races a lot more than those bloody pure blooded freaks which think that they are so great cos they are pure, well guys you suck!

So now all this vernacular school actually make the country racist and crazy. Why? Cos now it is happening! Imagine, the government is under this party called Barisan Nasional, it has 3 main sub-parties UMNO, MCA and MIC. Wots the use right? Why can;t you guys just make it to just 1 party? The sub-parties are all just for show! We are not making it happen! Mix everyone up and tell them take it or leave it, bitch! We are not gonna short change any ethnicity! And guess what is the catch? UMNO is actually the sub-party which is governing the Barisan Nasional, so are we really united? NOT! The answer is bloody NO!!!! Stop being such little cry babies and start abolishing sub-parties! Have a normal 1 party, let every and I mean EVERYONE to elect who become the president without knowing his ethnicity cos at the end of the day it is our damn freaking beloved country! We should be happy and not fighting over nothing! ARGH!

Seriously I hate all this racism in my country, if I have to bomb anything to make everyone to not be racist, I freaking well would! We should create a new party called the Loving Party or the We Dun Give A Damn Bout Your Ethnicity, We Want A Better Country Party or some crap.....

Government, stop giving empty promises, stop stealing our money and start integrating amongst yourselves before talking and saying all of us are not doing it, you guys are the big balls freaks so do it or be done! Stop putting old people in the ministry for so long, change every election or something. They are fat, dumb, irritating and not to mention racist.

We dun pay taxes to see u fat arses shaking those stuff in the office and do nothing and taking exotic holidays and shit. We want to see you guys work! Shape up! Good infrastructure! So far the best thing I have ever seen is the extremely under-utilized international airport of ours, Kuala Lumpur International Airport and maybe the Petronas Twin Tower which the whole world recognises or at least heard of.

So yeah I can't stand people talking bout saying like Ewwww this Malay guy or Eww this Chinese guy or Eww this Indian guy, shit man how about Ewww you're one freaking racist bitch, if you wanna do that go back home to China, India or wherever your ancestors come from..... We don't need retarded racist people, we need people who can integrate and speak the language, wear other cultures stuff. You know saree looks good on Chinese and Malays as well? The Baju Kebaya is one hot fashion statement? Cheongsam? OMG look at that Malay girl wearing that so sexy and the Indian girl in Cheongsam? Slender, ugh sexy legs wow. Baju Kebaya? Shows your sexiest curves you have and Saree, haha do I have to mention? You look like a sex bomb! Baju Kurung? Be proud of it! Batik? Full of culture as it colours your life! And I will admit, my mom has almost all of them, and I feel proud when she wears them for formal dinners and stuff with my dad cos they look so mucho caliente together.

So yeah please try something new that is not from your ethnicity today! Or better, make a new friend from another ethnicity today!

So yeah I would like to give myself a good hug cos this is my 100th post :)

The title means if you don't know that's why you don't like it in Malay.

mucho caliente means very hot in Spanish.

From now on if I use any foreign languages, I'll state the meaning in the end of the post. Happy?

Spread interracial now and be globalised person. (Hmmm is there such word as globalised?)

xoxoxoxo

Please remember to leave a comment! I love reading comments! Besos

Calling y Night Safari y Mucho Caliente

Have you ever tried calling a call center or something and people can't figure out your gender? It happens to me almost every time, even after stating my name! They were like oh my gawd I am so sorry blah blah, I'm like yea yea I heard it all before, bitch so let me continue.....

I still STILL can't get over that I lost my card, well I am gonna apply a brand new card and I found one which I like, it is gonna be purple in colour MasterCard this time, no more Visa cos I think they are cursed or something....... The best Visa which I had and still have is still my small little Visa card in blue and black, it looks so chic and like a toy but yet it's still a real card, cool right? It's for my online shopping tho.... I know I am a spoiled boy sometimes but at least I am independent..... I care bout people and I know how to indulge.

Oh did I tell you guys that I was in the Night Safari again? It was cool! I saw some animals which I wanted:- An otter, they are SO adorable! Porcupine, they look very cuddly, heh.... and this civet cat thingy, he is so smart! Hmmm well I dunno but I know it's like a pocahontas animal, her best friend... a raccoon? All I know is that they were adorable.... If you ever come to Singapore, visit the Night Safari cos I say so..... UHHHH The fire dancers or breathers, whatever they are, OMG they get me turned on and got me so excited with they OMG hotness, I would not mind a night of passion with ALL of them.... I dun do that, do you think I am a whore? OMG

I know I am a little drama thingy here, well I just needed to complain and rant so yeah....

I had a test today..... Operations Management

Ha ja

Also ich glaube ich wird bald verrueckt. Ich fuehle mich so alleine und einsam. Also ich hab diese Leid von Christina Struemer es heisst Engel Fliegen Einsam, ich denke es stimmt. Viele leute sagen das ich bin ein Engel zu dem weil ich hab immer die geholfen wenn es gab problem. Ist das so schlecht? Wenn ich ein film schaue, ich sehe ne ganz froehes glueckliches paar und alles, egal schwul oda hete. Ich bin eifersuchtig. Bin ich so kompliziert? Also ich denke ned.... Was denkst du?

Ich hoffe ihr allem kann mein Deutsche verstehen weil meine unterricht sind alles auf Englisch und ich sprechen fast nur 1 oder 2 saetze auf Deutsch am meinstens jeden tag. in 2009 ich wurde zurueck nach Deutschland ganz kurz fliegen und warschienlich mein Ausbildung fuer 11 wochen machen, ja schau mal mal....

Servus und gruess aus Singapur, ned so pur eigentlich...

Ich und mein kaputtes Deutsch....

It's Everything I Should Be

So hear this now to reply to one of my comments:

I am not looking for love but I am WAITING for love to look for me.

I am just wondering if my statement is right but then again, there is no right or wrong answer in this context, I am just waiting for love, that's all. I know I am a little insane inside, isn't everyone as well?

I wanted to write something but I forget, anyways I have a test tomorrow and I still need to study. It's already also 3am here and I need to wake up at like 8, I would be glad once tomorrow is over and I could just come back home and have a good rest :)

All That I Am

If you're not too long, I will wait here for you all my life

A Visit From A Friend + 1 And Departure

Well I have not been updating lately cos I either have been busy or dwell too much in my depression, I am self-obsessed.

Well a very good friend of mine, Franzi and her friend Marie came to Singapore as part of their Asian backpacking trip. It was awesome as I have not seen a friend of mine who knows so much of me for so long. We spoke our local Bavarian dialect and it was sau geil! (super cool in Bavarian). They flew to Tokyo on Thursday last week, we had problems with Franzi's flight ticket cos apparently the check-in counter lady told her that her ticket is invalid and crap, well she bought a new ticket and life goes on....

I showed them around and as usual we got lost cos I have too many maps in my head but I can't seem to figure out which is which city.....

Anyways we were out everyday, of course, they bought stuff, I see stuff, we went partying in Ministry of Sound (MOS), one of the hottest disco in Singapore but NOT anymore, I think Zouk is better now. I lost my Visa card there, this is the 2nd time I lost it this year! Once was erm when I lost my whole wallet with my travel document and identity cards and stuff inside. It was actually like 3 or 4 months ago. I think it's like cursed, the metallic brown visa card is cursed!!

And well I have been going to the gay scene for 2 weeks cos of a friend, Francisco, dunno if u guys remember him from previous posts. He left actually yesterday back to Mexico cos he needed to get a visa to enter Germany as he can't get it here. :( He was a good and nice friend. I teased him the very last night we had in Tantric, he was so horny, he wanted to xxxx me but I said no. Ok a little naughty details ova here heh? We were dancing and stuff, IN a BAR and yeah.... One surprising thing, there were a HUGE crowd of Stewards! KLM, Etihad, Lufthansa, Singapore Airlines, and god knows what else!

Oh well time to go back to reality and I am a head for some event which I have to publicize, kinda sucky and I have to write an article for a newsletter for an event which I attended.

Have I written anything bout Supply Chain Asia? Maybe not...

I love this quote:

It's better to have loved and lost, than have not fallen in love before (something similar which I heard, can't remember the exact words)

Summersturm

I just watched this German movie called Summersturm and I think it is cool.

I do not know how to describe it but I love the movie so much. It is in German with some Bavarian dialect in it.

It is about a boy from a dragon boat team or some boat team who is from a small town somewhere near Bamberg. Yeah the bottom line is that this guy, Tobi found out that he is falling in love with his best friend Achim and Achim has a girlfriend, which I forgot her name. Then problems starts to come out and stuff.

It is an eye opener film and I think everyone should watch it. It teaches everyone in general to be respecting of sexual orientations and lots more.

I am too tired and lazy now.

If you wanna watch the English version which I don't think would be good the title is Summer Storm, same meaning as the original title.

Try watching it in German with English subtitles 1st cos then you will feel it more.

Notice that the coach speaks a very heavy Bavarian dialect, very typical.

So what are you waiting for? Watch it! Go!

Ignorance is bliss

Here is a review from another blog, it is in German, English and French

Avenue Q

They are coming to Singapore! I would so love to watch it but I do not wanna watch it alone. I love their songs and it is so creative. Here one of the songs that I like. Click on it and enjoy! ;)

Endlich!

Finally I have found a song that I have been searching for all my life. It reflects my feelings so like forever and I think it really understands me. So yeah I found a song which reflects me and also understands me, not a man though.....

Here's the song

Listen and be enchanted..........

Supply Chain Asia

Well I have not blog lately cos I was busy with this forum thingy and I was staying with a friend of mine who is staying close to the hotel. Well I have internet there but I was so damn busy, I did not have time to catch my breath.

The forum was ok, people were kinda stuck and professional but I managed to talked to several nice industry players.

So yeah, imma go meet some friends soon.

Maybe You Could Help Me Understand?

I have been asking myself what life is and what it means to me and a lot of people have asked me that question too. For some people money seem to be the most important thing. But to me happiness and love is the most important thing for me, it always have been. To me money does not buy happiness, to some people it does buy them happiness.

Does money buy long term happiness and true love?

Dehydrated

If you ever drink alcohol, drink lots of water the following day. As much as you can. Alcohol makes your body dehydrated. I have been so dehydrated that I can feel it very much. After alcohol, if you feel really bad in your stomach or whatever, drink a can of Coke. It helps. After that go to bed. Drink lots of water the next day. Capisce?

Ich weiss nicht

Also ich weiss nicht ja was sollte ich machen. Ich hab grad ne freund gesagt das ich sorge ueber ihn und er hat gesagt das ich hab zu ihn gesagt das er ne schlampe ist. Hallo du???? Ich hab das ned gesagt. Ich habe nur gefragt wieso gehts du da und andere manner treffe aber nicht mit mir. Du hast gesagt das du bist einsam also ich war froeh das du hat jemand zu treffen. Ja, also ich weiss nicht. Manchmal ist beziehung irgendwas schweres zu behalten...... Ich glaube ich geh mal zelten mit meine freunden bis Sonntag und dann kam ich wieder zurueck.

Ich weiss nicht warum aba ich moechte einfach so Deutsch schrieben. Ich weiss das mein Deutsch nicht so perfekt ist aba bei mir und fuer meine freunden das geht schon. Vlg

Singer of The Month

So far for month of July I have been listening to songs from this artist and this artist only. When I was back in Germany I did not really like him cos I thought his song was crappy. But I was wrong. His songs are one of the best and I really really like them. The name of this artist is Xavier Naidoo. He is an South African Indian-German guy, in short also a Eurasian. Cool right? He sings in English and German but mostly German.

Here's one of his song (English/German): Ich kenne nichts (I've never seen) Listen to it!

My Man Is A Mean Man

This is song my a Swiss Idol or something winner. Her name is Stefanie Heinzmann. I really love this song

Here's the song

Loads people say she might not look good but to me looks does not count.... Talent does but this is a shallow world so yeah...

Songs That I Have Been Listening

Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis (and also the Jesse McCartney Version)

Engel Fliegen Einsam by Christina Stuermer (German)

Tocame by Sin Bandera (Spanish)

Devolva-me by Adriana Calcanhoto (Portuguese)

I Don't Know Much but I Know I Love You by Linda Ronstadt feat. Aaron Neville

Home by Micheal Buble

I Belong To You (Italian Version) by Eros Ramazzoti and Anastacia

Life For Rent by Dido

Right Here With Me by Dido

Soll Es Bleiben by Ich & Ich (German)

Stop & Stare by OneRepublic

Alcoholic

I am not an alcoholic but I have been drinking and getting so damn drunk and stuff everyday since I met James. I am afraid and I would wanna forget bout him. I want a relationship with him but I am not sure if he will want that. I am afraid I might get heart broken again.

To relieve my sadness I have been drinking everyday and get so damn drunk that my friends would have to bring me back home and stuff. Drunkness ease my sadness for awhile but ich will mich verlieben. Life's never fair...... The good person always get the shit.

Marc told me so many things bout me that he finds so good and I should have a lover and someone who really really loves me. Marc thinks that I am romantic cos I notice all those small things and I do all those small things to show my love, even to a good friend.... I am tired of helping people get back to their partners or helping them in their relationship. I want a partner myself and I want to be really in love and I want it to be 2 sided and not only 1 sided. I think I am a hopeless romantic....

Who does not want to be loved? I have been longing for that, someone who really really treats me well and not some abusive or denial person.....

Look at me and tell me you love me........... No one has done that to me. I feel that my love life is a failure.

1 Drink Too Much

I watched the finals yesterday. It was depressing but it was a great environment. Everyone from different countries and stuff. I drank and drank and drank, not remembering that I did not eat anything during or before that. So I got kinda drunk and I was in the train, then I realised that I had motion sickness and I ran out the next station and vomited. Was kinda lucky that Marc was with me cos or not I would have threw up on the floor. But at least it gives me some short term happiness and forgot that I was all lonely inside.....

I have been thinking bout James the whole day, I think I might be addicted.

Marc and Hao had another quarrel again and I am starting to get depressed that I would always help people with their relationship and when they are back together and stuff they look so happy and everything while I am here lonely and waiting for love to come. But it's just life isn't it? The good person never wins.... Marc told me yesterday that I deserve someone who is good and stuff. He hopes I find love soon. I hope I would find love soon too. I do not know why but sometimes the loneliness in the soul kills.

I have never wanted anything more, I tried to give everything. But I think as my dad has always told me, giving is better than receiving. I would love to receive some love that I've given........

James

This is weird but I just met a guy yesterday night and he reminds me so much of my ex and a guy who I use to have a huge huge crush on.

He looks like Carl, a guy who I had a huge crush on but he shifted to Hong Kong but in certain ways as in some characteristics are similar to my ex.

I do not know, I have been thinking of him the whole day. How could I be in love in just 1 evening? I must be insane.

James treated me so gently and pampered me. I am not sure if he feels the same. I have butterflies in my stomach every time I think bout him. Although he did not shower me with gifts but it was some other things that are way more important to me. It felt sort of like he embraced me, I don't know....

I am afraid that he would not fall in love with me but just will offer me a friendship.

My mind is filled with him. He is such an amazing person, I am crazy

Jack, Carl's best friend told me that Carl was waiting for me to ask Carl the question while Carl was making the decision to go to Hong Kong. I did not asked and I kissed Carl for the last time 2 weeks before he left for Hong Kong.....

Singpore Youth Festival

I was at the Singapore Youth Festival with 2 usual friends of mine and it was ok. Nothing exciting but people screaming and stuff it was ok.

After that we walked and got lost and we realised that we need to cross the river to get to the city and we wanna walk. So I think we walked for like maybe 2 hours or something until we got to Bugis.

It was ok and after dinner we wanted some stuff from McDo (again!!!) and we stood there for our turn and this really drunk or insane guy went to Marc and said something and his ice cream cone fell and his hand grabbed it and stuff, it's nasty!!!! Try grabbing the whole cone from the tip of the ice-cream, nasty!

So we decided to go in to get the stuff instead of the counter outside and there were children in there!!! ALL children, OMG. Then we were making fun of them cos I do not know why and suddenly I realise that they are from Hong Kong, cos I heard them speaking and those poor children were having really hard time trying to order stuff and the travel coordinator did not bother to help them.

Those children had a really long conversation with the cashier cos they are only able to speak Cantonese while there is only a cashier who is able to speak Cantonese and I am being unhelpful by not helping them. Well...... it depends on my mood and it got bad when I saw so many children flooding the counter and stuff.

I really wanna watch sex and the city......

Was geht an mich

I did not go to school today

I am an island-mensch

I watched football yesterday and was happy that Germany won against Turkey

Marc and Hao is ok again

I could be the Mc Do ambassador cos I have been eating it religiously EVERYDAY for whole of 2 weeks. Now I feel like puking...... I'm a McDo die hard fan

Ich will mich verlieben

No, I am not a Mexican but I lurve Mexican food.

It is getting too warm for me over here and air conditioning is not preferred by moi

I need to finish my assignments and projects soon

I need normal sleeping patterns, after UEFA cup, I promise to sleep properly

I need a date

Bonne nuit........

Good and Bad

I talk too much. I really hope they will be ok together and he will talk to him soon. Life's so complicated. Maybe I should not talk so much

Besame Mucho

I do not know but I think I am a very selfish person. People tell me stuff bout me that I do not see in me. Maybe cos I always think badly bout myself and the thing I am proud bout myself which is also I am ashame of is being mixed race. Other than that I cannot find a reason to be proud of myself.

I dunno.....

I have been listening to 2 songs. Besame mucho by Andrea Bocelli and Bleeding love by Jesse McCartney. I sing to them and it seems like Yelena thinks I can sing, well cos she was the only person whom I have sung to, except my ex which I sung Leaving on a jetplane to him on our anniversary. I really love singing, but maybe only to fill the loneliness in my heart.

When I listen to besame mucho, I close my eyes and sometimes tears flow out cos I am picturing something so beautiful yet very sad. If only someone would hold me while this song is playing. Besame mucho means Kiss me much in Spanish.

I am a very hopeless romantic and I would not be ashame to admit that. I'd do almost anything for the person I love.....

I have to go to the Immigration and Checkpoints Authority tomorrow cos the address in my pass is wrong even after changing it. Good night.

Besame mucho, como si fuera esta noche, la ultima vez, que tengo miedo a pederte (Kiss me much, like tonight was the last, because I'm afraid I might lose you)

EM/UEFA Song

I love this song so damn much well mainly cos it is from one of my favourite singer. It is one of the songs for the UEFA cup or in German we call it Europameisterschaft or in short EM. It is Fieber by Christina Stuermer. ue is U with the 2 dots on top but I am using the English keyboard so yeah. Listen to it and enjoy! If you need any translations, ask moi!

This is the song

Wir haben fieber, kommt fieber mit!!!!!

Camping Trip

I went camping as written in my previous post. It was great and I have a sunburn now. I have tan lines and it makes me feel great but the pain from the sun burn is not fun. So yeah the camping. Well we cycled there and now my legs are hurting and stuff. We (Marc, Hao and I) were camping at Pasir Ris Park, if you do not know where it is, it is at the east side of Singapore, near the airport.

I do not know why but this time we did not terrorize anyone but we just made fun of everyone. Yesterday as we were barbecuing, there were a German guy and his wife. We needed charcoal cos the wind was so strong and it would not light up so I went over to ask someone from the whole group. I knew he was a German cos I know it, it's like a sense of mine. Anyways, after that Marc asked the lady which part of Germany is the guy from and she replied Germany. We were like we are not retarded. So we asked again and she said oh I dunno and she asked why. Marc pointed at me! And said oh he is learning German..... I'm like hello!!!!???? I am not learning German and you know that biatch.... I speak it just like you and with an accent now..... And she was like oh and went back and told them bout it.....

So yeah I am really tired and the night it was raining so bad that our tent was moving and shaking around and the wind blew the top off! I had to go out and put a poncho on top of it and got myself all went and the tent was flooded. It is NOT fun but hey it's camping.

During the whole duration I found out what Hao is like when he is living with others. One word: Selfish. He is VERY lucky that Marc is totally blind. Even Marc agree that Hao is a very difficult lover but he is so freaking in love with him and stuff that Marc just take the pain when Hao does not care bout him. Oh well life is NEVER fair as I always emphasize it.

Oh Marc and I were talking bout Xavier Naidoo. He called him some word which I forgot in German but it is also the same meaning as Mischling. It is NOT nice cos he called me that too. Ish! And he keep on saying that I am Mexican. Well no Buritos for you Mister! Anyways I do not know what I am talking bout and Portuguese were not in Mexico, it was the damn Spanish!!!!!! Sorry, Portugal and Spain are always enemies, even now so yeah. Forca Portugal!!

Ok nite nite

Wir Haben Fieber!!!

Portugal was playing against Germany the other and I was in a REAL dilemma cos I do not know whether I should choose Portugal or Germany cos they are both related to me. Portugal is blood and Germany is growing up. So yeah...... But Germany won 3-2. And I think Christiano Ronaldo is not hot. I don't know why are people so crazy bout him. I think the goalkeeper for Portugal is so damn hot he gives me sleepless nights. He is think kind of Portuguese that I would be proud of heh. I would call him a hengst. Ok I am awake now..... Forca Portugal!!!

Willkommen

Yesterday was kinda fun but it was also a little bit hectic. Me, and 2 other friends which are a couple we went to shop for a tent and some camping stuff cos obviously we wanted to go camping, Ja.

And one of them, Marc said hmmm I have never had so much fun shopping before and his lover, Hao said yeah that's cos u have E..... around and blah blah. Marc kept on thanking me for bringing Hao back to him and changing Hao and make Hao talk and be more open and stuff. Yeah well if they are happy then I guess I am happy.

Anyways, we bought some stuff including alcohol(Of course!) and we decided we wanted to try out the tent. So we went to some field beside the MRT station to build our tent and stuff. After building it we felt so comfy we just stayed there. Well the only local among the 3 of us is Hao so he was like telling us that it is illegal to camp and stuff. But we did not care. Marc and I told me well we will cover up by saying we are foreigners and stuff. So in the morning, at like 5 am people start to run around and old people we in their groups doing some tai-chi and stuff. We got irritated and to avoid being caught by the police we took a bus to Changi Village Beach or something where it is legal to camp. Ok now I know why it is legal there...... Cos planes fly pass like every 5 mins non-stop! It is so loud I think in total I slept for like 2 hours the most. Well so far this week I did not land up in my bed at all. It's either McDo or camping.

The agony that I am always facing, 2 love birds embracing each other in front of me always and during the camp.... too much info. Anyways well I just wanted to be with my close friends and if they are loving and happy then I guess I have to be fine too. We will start our real camping tomorrow until Sunday. I feel kinda tired thinking bout that. And tonight I will not get no sleep cos I need to stay up to watch the match between Germany and Portugal. OMG I can't believe it! I do not know who to support. Germany which I stayed for some time and had feelings for or Portugal, my blood and real mother land of my ancestors. Well WTF I dun care but I secretly hope that Portugal will win but I am fine as long as no one dies. Don't you think Philip Lahm is kinda cute? Well cute as in little boy cute......

Anyways I got myself a new bicycle and my butt hurts from it.........

The title was Willkommen cos it was the song that was playing in my head since yesterday. It is by Rosenstolz.

Cu

Something To Laugh

My friend sent me this clip and it has 2 episodes. It's called Que hora es? (What time is it? in Spanish) It is really funny. It is better if you'd understand Spanish cos it's in Spanish. All you need is basic Spanish.

Episode 1

Episode 2

Nights in McDonalds

I have been spending like 3 or 4 nights in McDo cos my friends and I watch the UEFA cup over there. I was never into football but I suddenly find football quite an ok thing. Loads of people say that it's not gay to do that. Well lemme tell you something, you do not always have to fit into the stereotype y'know. And loadsa people when I was back in Germany watch football!

So 3 or 4 nights in McDo means 3 or 4 nights or not sleeping and having a horrible sleep pattern. SO night is becoming day for me while day is becoming night for me. It is actually really bad and I have been eating so much McDo that I am kinda worried now. It's like when I am there I would drink like 1 or 2 soft drink, 1 hot tea, 1 hot Milo, 1 hot coffee, nuggets, apple pie, breakfast and ice-cream of course. I know it is crazy......

Ever since I have been staying alone, I eat fast food really frequently. I saw this fast food parody bout fat ass it and stuff and it makes me worry sometimes and not to mention I am getting a little bit out of shape lately. Well at least I am starting to exercise after like a few months of doing nothing. My preference will still be Burger King and KFC tho. Maybe Long John's Silver sometimes.

The weird thing bout being in McDo for so long is that people tend to notice and normally I hang out with this Singaporean boy and his boyfriend which is a German. The boy goes home early or half way cos he has a curfew and I generally click with the German guy for some obvious reasons and people are starting to think that we are together cos we talk so much and stuff while he is having some relationship problems cos his bf, Singaporean is so quite and is quite reluctant to maintain the relationship. Anyways I'll still be their friends. And I think I have been speaking too much German too but it's fun cos no one understands and they like to stare so much.

The 1st night in McDo, was the funniest cos we practically terrorize the whole place and flirt with anyone who passes by the door cos we were so bored and we made up some new recipe with whatever that we bought, ugh it's disgusting to think of it but it was funny. The smell which we create were so unbearable from the ketchup, coffeemate, parts of burgers, fries and etc. I swear I would puke if I were to take the dare of eating it.

Yeah so it was really fun and I was talking to my German classmate which is in Malaga, Spain now on the phone while in McDo and he was having very much fun, I dunno why....... But I do miss my classmates back there. They say they might visit me next year but let's see. Toodles

Short Notices

Some stuff which I put to remind myself or short notes bout myself:

I am representing school for Supply Chain Asia Forum but the school did not inform me. The director for the event did.... weird

I need to pay school fees by 25 June

I need to clear room

Meet up with Marc for jogging and coffee

Meet Sacha for coffee

Send Robert to the airport

Do the laundry

Projects and assignments: Design in Culture, Basics of Entrepreneurship, Purchasing Principles and Practices, Logistics and Supply Chain Management.

I wanna eat sushi

I need to exercise

I need to have normal sleep

Iron clothes

So from now on if I have short notices I'll just post it as a title and with like short notes. Well it's my blog, so I'll do whatever I want....

Festival Fantasia

Well it's Singapore Arts Festival 2008 and I went for Festival Fantasia just now.

Oh, did I told you that I have not slept since 2 days ago? Cos I was in Mc Donalds talking to a German friend with his oh so complicated boyfriend for 15 hours! We drank so much coffee, ate so much and stuff.

Ok anyways I was all sleepy and tired but I went for this Festival Fantasia. It's actually an orchestra playing and stuff and there were several solo ones with the orchestra. If you do not get me, it's fine cos I'm too tired after not sleeping for so long. So it was like for 3 hours and was really nice. I actually like the violin players, flutes and cello.

It's really amazing what music can mean and I think I am going to like this kind of music. Is this called classical music? Well I dun care, but I think it is very defined and great! But the guy who apparently won a million awards for playing the piano made several mistakes and he was not good at all! Only the last song cos it's his best song and his personal song I think. That guy's name is Wenyu Shen, apparently really talented and stuff, I think it's just some marketing gimmick. And Tee Khoon Tang were another solo performer or featured performer in this concert thingy and everyone thought she had a period or she just wanted to rape the violin. She was ok I think but for professionals she suck. Whatever folks...

I think this kind of concert makes me very sane and not to mention sleepy :P Nitey nite

Discrimination IN My OWN Country!

I have been longing to write this VERY long ago and finally I found some time to write this. I am seriously against the government, well it's not like I am a terrorist or something but I just disagree with the policies and everything else

Why do we have a political party which is so split? It's like at the end of the day we get most of our ministers from UMNO cos of the racial 'balance'. What is with MCA or MIC? Why can't they merge and call BARISAN NASIONAL?

What does it mean when we have so many sub-parties in there? Trying to lurk racism? Just put aside differences and abolish this stupid UMNO MCA and MIC, it does not make life easier having these 3 parties but it would make life better if it were to only be Barisan Nasional. Can't they just choose capable people?

We are all born in Malaysia for God's sake, which means we are Malaysians! Now we have crappy ministers and the shit goes on.

Not to mention we fell in our corruption ranking? Hello? We are getting more and more corrupted, so much for being proud of my country. Stop corruption! Our soldiers are the best paid in South-East Asia, that's right! And ministers? WTF the wrong with you all? HA? You guys get like a high pay every month and you guys want more money? Try to hide it up by blaming others? So where are the morale in our society? You guys are trying to teach us to be good people in Moral Studies, hey set an example. Don't think the rest are ignorant towards it ok. Educated people would know what is happening and it does not take a genius to know it!

The government waste so much money on nothing! Hello how much have u guys spent on public transport? Hah? Increase the petrol price, but IMPROVE the freaking public transport, seriously! Waiting for a bus to come for like 2 hours is not fun!

Hey ministers, try taking the public transport for 1 day and u guys will pee in your pants. We spent like billions on public transport and shit, yeah ok say 1 billion and I guess a few million will go into someone's pocket, that's for sure! Corruption!

Malaysia Truly Asia? Hello? Yeah showing that Asia is very corrupted and racist? So truly Asia! It should now be Malaysia Truly Racist and Corrupted! ARGH.

I am so proud of my own country but I am not afraid to point out the flaws. So trying to be like Singapore covering up all the flaws? Well yeah Singapore is so fokken small so they can but Malaysia, you can't! Why cover up the flaws? It is not gonna make u any better, just face the truth that the government SUCKS!

People are suffering and want a better government ok! We want peace and harmony not some racist country which discriminates their own people! We want effective and efficient public transport! We want a pay rise due to inflation! We want security, not a country full of crime! We hate illegal immigrants that come here to kill and steal and do crime!!!!!!!! We want immigration to be fair. We want a balanced society and no racial lines! Ok? Got it?

Ministers acting are like children seriously and refuse to take responsibility! Even a child might be smarter than them. Why be so corrupted? Isn't this selfish? Police are corrupted as well and are with the ministers in stealing the citizen's money. Hey asswipes we pay you guys ok and yet we have no freaking rights and live by racial lines? At the end of the day it is our money! We should have a say!

This is one screwed up country, seriously either buck up or resign.

Verdammte scheissssssse!!!!! ARGH!